MistressOfTheShadows
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- Posted: Sun, 08 Sep 2013 04:05:54 +0000
You will probably dismiss me as too crazy to believe for even asking this... but is it possible for there to be an infectious disease that attacks the "mind" & spreads from person to person like a virus?
I ask this because my fiance whom I met a year ago is very emotionally/mentally unstable & has multiple personality disorder, ADHD, OCD, and psychotic tendencies that began when his father cheated on his mother and abandoned his family.
Just a few short months after meeting him, my mother who had showed no previous signs of mental illness went from being a kind sweet-natured person who liked him, to developing a multiple personality disorder of her own that causes her to switch back & forth from kindhearted, trusting & understanding to mean-spirited, selfish & paranoid with no memory of her words & actions from 1 side to the other.
Since then I've been noticing changes in own mind.. I'm becoming increasingly unstable mentally & emotionally, I'm starting to have more scattered & fragmented thoughts, increased trouble focusing, concentrating, and organizing my thoughts, (this isn't exactly easy for my to type as a result & is taking me a while) my short term memory isn't as what it used to be, & I've developed tendencies to act out violently in fits of rage when angry that can only be calmed by fantasizing about doing violent things I know I can't physically allow myself do to the person that angers me or imagining myself chained up inside my own head.
My fiance's issues shouldn't have effected my mom like they did because he acted normal round her to keep them hidden & only I saw them, but at some point unprovoked (for no reason at all) she just randomly snapped blaming my neglect of her & my dad to spend more time with my fiance on the day of my graduation for the cause of her suddenly becoming mean to him at 1st & then to me.
I started out a little bit ADHD & OCD, but not as bad as I am now & much more controlled & non-violent & my issues began when I started getting defensive of my fiance & she began to turn on me for sticking up on him... my mom had just become such a relentless merciless tormentor day after day arguing about every little nit-picking thing she could rehash while on her bad-side (which she comes out of less & less and for short & veritable times) that it began to wear me down and break down my sanity making my mind weaker & more vulnerable until I began to feel my own mind start to grow corrupted like a tree being consumed by blight.
If my theory is correct I think that this is something that jumps from head to head contagiously infecting people with weakened mental/emotional health & that the reason it hasn't driven EVERYONE around my fiance including his family & the members of the church insane, but effected us is because it gets in threw emotional scars/wounds that can only stem from a great deal of pain brought on by betrayal & hate or intense emotional abuse... So that it 1st hits someone like my mom who has been threw 2 divorces and still resents her exes & tries to compare and judge other men by them, and then infects someone like me who's been weakened by having every friend or guy I dated leave me, but was resilient enough to forgive them... once it is able to break down my resistance far enough by torturing me using it's host as a means to create enough weakness.
What do you think thoughts?
Do you think such a thing is possible?
Also, do you think there's any way to cure such a thing?
My fiance believe that the "cure" for him is to get the point where he can forgive his dad & I believe that forgiveness may be the cure for my mom & I as well in a way... Mom needs to forgive and put aside everything that she falsely believes was done wrong onto her & I, while I need to get her back to normal so I can forgive her... if this doesn't happen it can be a problem because I'm starting to react to his mom as I do to mine when conflicts arise & I worry I won't be able to handle ordinary day today life & interactions with other people if my mind gets any worse... & also fear that if not contained this may infect other people.
I ask this because my fiance whom I met a year ago is very emotionally/mentally unstable & has multiple personality disorder, ADHD, OCD, and psychotic tendencies that began when his father cheated on his mother and abandoned his family.
Just a few short months after meeting him, my mother who had showed no previous signs of mental illness went from being a kind sweet-natured person who liked him, to developing a multiple personality disorder of her own that causes her to switch back & forth from kindhearted, trusting & understanding to mean-spirited, selfish & paranoid with no memory of her words & actions from 1 side to the other.
Since then I've been noticing changes in own mind.. I'm becoming increasingly unstable mentally & emotionally, I'm starting to have more scattered & fragmented thoughts, increased trouble focusing, concentrating, and organizing my thoughts, (this isn't exactly easy for my to type as a result & is taking me a while) my short term memory isn't as what it used to be, & I've developed tendencies to act out violently in fits of rage when angry that can only be calmed by fantasizing about doing violent things I know I can't physically allow myself do to the person that angers me or imagining myself chained up inside my own head.
My fiance's issues shouldn't have effected my mom like they did because he acted normal round her to keep them hidden & only I saw them, but at some point unprovoked (for no reason at all) she just randomly snapped blaming my neglect of her & my dad to spend more time with my fiance on the day of my graduation for the cause of her suddenly becoming mean to him at 1st & then to me.
I started out a little bit ADHD & OCD, but not as bad as I am now & much more controlled & non-violent & my issues began when I started getting defensive of my fiance & she began to turn on me for sticking up on him... my mom had just become such a relentless merciless tormentor day after day arguing about every little nit-picking thing she could rehash while on her bad-side (which she comes out of less & less and for short & veritable times) that it began to wear me down and break down my sanity making my mind weaker & more vulnerable until I began to feel my own mind start to grow corrupted like a tree being consumed by blight.
If my theory is correct I think that this is something that jumps from head to head contagiously infecting people with weakened mental/emotional health & that the reason it hasn't driven EVERYONE around my fiance including his family & the members of the church insane, but effected us is because it gets in threw emotional scars/wounds that can only stem from a great deal of pain brought on by betrayal & hate or intense emotional abuse... So that it 1st hits someone like my mom who has been threw 2 divorces and still resents her exes & tries to compare and judge other men by them, and then infects someone like me who's been weakened by having every friend or guy I dated leave me, but was resilient enough to forgive them... once it is able to break down my resistance far enough by torturing me using it's host as a means to create enough weakness.
What do you think thoughts?
Do you think such a thing is possible?
Also, do you think there's any way to cure such a thing?
My fiance believe that the "cure" for him is to get the point where he can forgive his dad & I believe that forgiveness may be the cure for my mom & I as well in a way... Mom needs to forgive and put aside everything that she falsely believes was done wrong onto her & I, while I need to get her back to normal so I can forgive her... if this doesn't happen it can be a problem because I'm starting to react to his mom as I do to mine when conflicts arise & I worry I won't be able to handle ordinary day today life & interactions with other people if my mind gets any worse... & also fear that if not contained this may infect other people.