Shadow k1tty
Kitty Mathers
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Um, I've actually had this disorder. It exists.
Had? Out of curiousity how did you "make it go away"?
I'd like to know how you "had" it?you say it as if you don't anymore...
Unlike what most people think, because of sensationalized portrayals of DID in the media, DID is not untreatable and the sufferer can be aware they have the disorder...some know their alters, some know their names and everything and some dont. I for example dont have a huge list of names or anything...
also..
Integration is possible(fusion of alters), and also cooperation, and co-consciousness with your alters. Meaning you can be somewhat present at times.
Dissociation is a spectrum.... Its not always blacking out.
Sometimes dissociative amnesia can happen while an alter is out, meaningyou forget....or partial co-consciousness.... you can watch alters act and watch it all happen but do not black out, and possibly remember a bit.
some people communicate easier with some alters than others, some have alters they are co-conscious or co-hosted with meaning there can be two present at once,
some alters do not come out in the body and only speak in the mind.
Some alters never come out unless its safe. DID is first and foremost a coping mechanism, not everyone is a "Sybil"...DID is usually a coping mechanism to deal with extreme, chronic trauma ....its to protect the brain,for some who developeed DID it may not have been safe to completely black out and forget, that would defeat the point of the coping mechanism in their situation..but this is just for my situation perhaps not the same for all. All people are different.
I am at times more "out of it" than others, and sometimes I am fully here...its not something people should want to fake, because its hard to live like this and confusing and embarassing...
I for example have bouts where I remember a few things that happened but not everything, or I have times when I remember everything and times where im blank. I for the most part am co-conscious but I am unable to influence and control what my alters do. Its almost like you are asleep and cannot do anything...
they have their own way of acting and own views..Its hard, its not fun! its not. It just isnt.
and if you think all DIDs have personalities that dress different and have different voices, yes some do...but not all. I for example sometimes switch and nobody notices, sometimes people just say "you seem different today" sometimes Im completely lost and dont know what I just did all day...sometimes I do but its hazy...I usually try to hide my DID, from people...I dont have the full on black outs all the time...usually everything is just blendy and hazy and not clear, and sometimes I cant even remember my own name. Its a spectrum, not black and white.
DID is not fun in adult life. Its real, confusing, and at times makes me ashamed...because I do things I later cannot explain.
So yes in my life it is real, and its terribly confusing and horrifying at times. NOT fun. Not adventurous or awesome
I hope this clears some misconceptions.