Squishy1423
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- Posted: Tue, 05 Feb 2013 08:08:13 +0000
Hello Gaia. I'm just gonna cut to the chase here. K?
For the first twenty something years of my life I was alone. Sure I had the odd hookup here and there but it never went anywhere. Then I meet this girl on the Internet and we really hit it off. We like a lot of the same stuff and we get along great. There were a few annoyances as there are with any relationship I guess, but I figured we'd get past them.
So after we've been dating for about 6 months or so we decide to move in together. She refuses to leave her hometown and my job was getting shut down, so I moved here. At first it was ok, yes it was a big adjustment, but I got past that for her. I'm lookin for a job around here and unfortunately we live with her parents, don't get me started on them, but things are still generally ok.
But lately, idk I feel trapped or smothered or something I guess. I never thought I'd say this but I miss home. I miss my family. And weirdest of all I miss being single. A lot of things about her start bugging me like her strange refusal to get wifi, her massive OCD, her mood swings and crankyness. Normally to cope with things like this ( don't give your drugs are bad stuff, I've heard it all before and am not interested) I would smoke some weed. Calms me down, changes perspective, generally makes me feel good. But she always makes me feel guilty about it. If I even mention the subject I might like a toke, she gets downright hostile. Yet her family smoke cigs like chimneys. But whatever. I miss not having to censor myself for the feelings of another. I miss not feeling smothered.
Latley I find myself feeling like I should break up with her. Problem is that I really do love her. She does mostly make me happy. I really don't think she deserves to have her heart broken and she's so good to me too. I really don't know what to do. So I come to strangers seeking advice or something idk. Help?
For the first twenty something years of my life I was alone. Sure I had the odd hookup here and there but it never went anywhere. Then I meet this girl on the Internet and we really hit it off. We like a lot of the same stuff and we get along great. There were a few annoyances as there are with any relationship I guess, but I figured we'd get past them.
So after we've been dating for about 6 months or so we decide to move in together. She refuses to leave her hometown and my job was getting shut down, so I moved here. At first it was ok, yes it was a big adjustment, but I got past that for her. I'm lookin for a job around here and unfortunately we live with her parents, don't get me started on them, but things are still generally ok.
But lately, idk I feel trapped or smothered or something I guess. I never thought I'd say this but I miss home. I miss my family. And weirdest of all I miss being single. A lot of things about her start bugging me like her strange refusal to get wifi, her massive OCD, her mood swings and crankyness. Normally to cope with things like this ( don't give your drugs are bad stuff, I've heard it all before and am not interested) I would smoke some weed. Calms me down, changes perspective, generally makes me feel good. But she always makes me feel guilty about it. If I even mention the subject I might like a toke, she gets downright hostile. Yet her family smoke cigs like chimneys. But whatever. I miss not having to censor myself for the feelings of another. I miss not feeling smothered.
Latley I find myself feeling like I should break up with her. Problem is that I really do love her. She does mostly make me happy. I really don't think she deserves to have her heart broken and she's so good to me too. I really don't know what to do. So I come to strangers seeking advice or something idk. Help?