had to move 2,400 miles from everyone I loved. (friends who are like family, and my at the time boyfriend) I had to move for financial reasons. I could've stayed if I had any form of money, or a place to stay. I didn't have either.
said boyfriend I had to move away from broke up with me. we were kinda engaged (no engagement ring was involved, he basically just popped the question out of nowhere) and it crushed me. it still hurts.
I'm babysitting 10 hours a day for $20 a day.
I have no friends where I'm living now because I can't drive. (working on that)
my mom, and everyone in this house (living w/ mom and her brother and his wife) all smoke and I hate it, and I'm afraid it'll take a toll on my mom's health. as long as I can remember smoking has seemed to have taken a toll on her, she's constantly coughing, and I'm worried I'll lose her.
right about 3 years ago my father passed away. the day before Valentines day.
he was a brilliant man, but drank, a lot. we believe that's why he was diagnosed with diabetes so much sooner than his dad was. (my grandpa was diagnosed a couple years before my dad was. my grandpa must be at LEAST 80 by now. and my dad would be around 54 by now, I think)
and just the other night, a friend I've known since I was 6 told me her grandfather had a stroke, and may not make it. and that made me really sad.
also, I still love (or at least REALLLLY care) about my ex. and I think I'm falling for a mutual friend of mine and my ex's. (I'm closer to the friend, but they do hang out) but there's nothing I can do about it now, since I live so far away.
I've lost contact with dozens of people.
I'm always tired. never really happy. and I have issues sleeping most nights.
that's the basic jist of it right now.