Dirty Little Secrets [Announcement 11/8/2023]

Before I go, I've got to know:

Is that what you mean to say?	29.2%	[ 746 ]
Before I rise to my defense,	5.0%	[ 127 ]
Before I speak in hurt or fear,	5.6%	[ 142 ]
Before I build that wall of words,	4.3%	[ 110 ]
Tell me: did I really hear?	10.2%	[ 260 ]
Words are windows, or they're walls,	9.8%	[ 250 ]
They sentence us, or set us free.	6.2%	[ 157 ]
When I speak and when I hear,	2.9%	[ 75 ]
Let the love light shine through me.	26.8%	[ 684 ]
Total Votes:			[ 2551 ]

[` B e l o v e d]

Shagrath and his microphone: Still a better love story than Twilight.

[` B e l o v e d]

I have a chubs crush. Simen Hestnæs. Vortex, the ex-member of Dimmu Borgir. Oh god, this thing he does with his voice and his guitar. It's like actual sex.

[Rest your bones]

I will carry you, always, as a ghost in my hollows. In this way, I will keep you with me until the day I die.

I warned you of my sentimentality and of the fact that I would givegivegive you a part of me that I will not be able to regain. Like this, you have entered in with my demons and devils to plague me in all ways.

Always,
Always.

[poisonxwine]

Okay, so how is ignoring me supposed to help?

[Blue Fuhrer]

I feel broken.

[SwirlingDark]

ι'νє gσт gυηѕ, ∂σ уσυ ωαηηα
vvvvvvvvvvvтαкє αιм αт єα¢н σтнєя?
vvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvѕ¢яαт¢н тнє ιт¢н, gινє тнє ƒιηgєя
vvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv'¢αυѕє ωє ∂ση'т ¢αяє αηуωαу.

I've been trying to get a hold of you for nearly 24 ******** HOURS.
And you choose when I'm getting ready for my INTERVIEW to actually ******** reply?
Thanks for that, seriously.
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Why is the entire world bent on pissing me off over the last two days?
Short notice interviews, hissy moods and complete silence.
Do you WANT me to do well?
Because right now, it honestly feels you you all get off on seeing me failing and miserable.

gσт кηινєѕ, нανє уσυ ѕєєη 'єм?vvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv
ιη уσυя вα¢к'ѕ ωнєяє ωє кєєρ 'ємvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv
αη∂ уσυ'яє ηєνєя gσηηα яєα¢н 'ємvvvvvvvvv
ωєℓℓ, тнαт ѕσυη∂ѕ ƒαιя.

[Knight of Void]

eh. luckily i was at least able to sleep until 7 despite how early i went to bed. i was more or less awake but decided to get out of bed in hopes you were on. you aren't, nor have been. because theres no way you would have said nothing to that link loooooooooooooooooooooool. i just really want to talk to you.

i talked myself into believing i bullied you into this. i was really scared. but i was wrong. which is to say, of course i was. you were apprehensive but i guess you genuinely decided to give it a try. between you hurting your ankle and the depression that led after it, i internalized and personalized it, thinking it was me you were upset with, not you and your body. i know i brought it up before but the doubt and fear still lingered after that conversation and just festered.

i dont know. i just want to talk to you a lot today and love on you. that's just it.

[KairiWillSwantonYou]

Ƭħε ρεηɗυℓυϻ sϮιℓℓ sωαʏs ϝѳʀ ʏѳυ,
$υcħ αrε Ϯħε ɗαʀκs ħεrε Ϯѳ sħѳω ʏoυ, cħιℓɗ ιn α cѳʀηεʀ,
Ϝαℓℓεη ϻιʀʀѳʀs, αℓℓ κιηԍɗѳϻ ιn cιηɗεʀs.


I am... not sure how I feel about that.

[Baedrien]

How do you tell someone you can feel yourself slipping into a depression without sounding/being over dramatic?

[Baedrien]

Blue Fuhrer

I feel broken.

[Baedrien]

Ashes of the Phoenix

Syrenu

I'm tired of sleepless nights.

I'm tired of nights spent alone.

I'm tired of being scared to close my eyes because I don't want to dream about the inevitable.

I'm tired of crying behind his back.

I'm tired of hurting like this, of feeling like my heart's being ripped right out of my chest.

I'm tired of everything.

And it's only going to get worse.

He is the one thing that's keeping me from falling back into that bottomless hole I was drowning in.