Dirty Little Secrets [Announcement 11/8/2023]

Before I go, I've got to know:

Is that what you mean to say?	29.3%	[ 746 ]
Before I rise to my defense,	5.0%	[ 127 ]
Before I speak in hurt or fear,	5.6%	[ 142 ]
Before I build that wall of words,	4.3%	[ 110 ]
Tell me: did I really hear?	10.2%	[ 260 ]
Words are windows, or they're walls,	9.8%	[ 250 ]
They sentence us, or set us free.	6.2%	[ 157 ]
When I speak and when I hear,	2.9%	[ 75 ]
Let the love light shine through me.	26.8%	[ 682 ]
Total Votes:			[ 2549 ]

[Epitaff]

S c h a d 3 n f r e u d e

I do not ever very, very rarely have good dreams. They're always filled with sadness of some sort.

And, incidentally, extremely vivid deaths.

[King of Kanto]

Even if it makes me somewhat uncomfortable, it also makes me happy. Thanks.

[Cuddlesome Sesquipedalian]

god dammit.
even when i get legal to drink,
i can't drink any malts or anything with wheat.
********.
rage

[S c h a d 3 n f r e u d e]

I'm aware that I'm a very dry person. There's nothing particularly interesting about me, and where most people prefer the applications of mathematics, I prefer the board and the chalk. I even literally prefer chalkboards to dry erase markers, aside from that dreadful sound they make when the chalk scratches at the wrong angle. I only seem interesting because the things that I enjoy and that are part of me seem "strange" or "odd" to the majority of the population.

Humanity's closed minds. Ah, but it's not different from anything else, it's just a preference, a piece of a person similar to liking books or shoes. It's truly not that interesting or intriguing at all. There's no part to me that's particularly wild in nature. I truly am just flat.

I see nothing wrong with it personally, I feel that others have a harder time with it than I do.

[Mass Producing Hate]

I wanted to say,
You shouldn't suffer this way

That is what I needed, some good ol' industrial, well not the old school kind, tbh that s**t is borderline unlistenable even for me and I am pretty open to odd forms of music.

I wanted to say,
I hope I can take it away.

[champagne and disco]

Things will get better.


They have to.

[Makigoto]

✖ i've been thinking of exile
✖ i've been thinking hit the highway and head up north


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i'm a really shitty friend.
i'm so distracted by all of this.
it's so difficult to remember anything.

i've always had bad memory, but it gets worse.
and i'm constantly so tired and everything is so horrible and bothersome.

it's getting worse and i want it to just end.

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i've been thinking cross the bridge and don't turn back ✖
██the only warmth is a warmth alone ✖

[Sibyllic]

I'm in a self-reflective mood. Looking back at my life up until this point, piecing together every memory, I'm feeling like I've failed myself somewhere along the line.

But, there's no do-over's. There's only living in this moment and making it the best it can be.

[Dirty Dishwater]

I made pain an essential part of my life, something to sought after rather than avoided. Whoops.

[Mass Producing Hate]

I wanted to say,
You shouldn't suffer this way

Meh, time for sleep I suppose.

I wanted to say,
I hope I can take it away.

[Rains On Friday]

I told my friend I play Dating SIMs.
I spent like three hours on Saturday doing it.
But most days I'll spend 10-30 minutes.
She thinks I have an addiction.
rolleyes
Well then, you're way passed addicted to temple run.
I don't even do it because "woe is me, I'm lonely".
This game has like a million mini games and tasks you have to do.
But no.
I'm the addicted, lonely girl.
rolleyes
Please, as if.

[Rains On Friday]

I realize it's AP season, but unlike you I don't have a boyfriend to turn to when I'm stressed.
I thought I had a friend to turn to, but it looks like she's too busy with her boyfriend.

[shiny spoink]

i just want to go to bed.
but i have a story to write.
and missing math work to do.

[Makigoto]

✖ i've been thinking of exile
✖ i've been thinking hit the highway and head up north


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i'm ******** up left and right.
i can't get it right anymore.
i'm pushing this body too hard.
too hard.

it can go for longer.
i'll go and go until it collapses.
what more have i got?

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i've been thinking cross the bridge and don't turn back ✖
██the only warmth is a warmth alone ✖