Dirty Little Secrets [Announcement 11/8/2023| Reminder 2024]

Before I go, I've got to know:

Is that what you mean to say?	29.2%	[ 808 ]
Before I rise to my defense,	5.0%	[ 138 ]
Before I speak in hurt or fear,	5.5%	[ 152 ]
Before I build that wall of words,	4.2%	[ 116 ]
Tell me: did I really hear?	10.1%	[ 279 ]
Words are windows, or they're walls,	9.7%	[ 268 ]
They sentence us, or set us free.	6.1%	[ 169 ]
When I speak and when I hear,	3.0%	[ 82 ]
Let the love light shine through me.	27.3%	[ 754 ]
Total Votes:			[ 2766 ]

[torrid romance]

I go to your tumblr every single ******** day to see the same things. You
so rarely post, and it kills me that I hardly know if you're alive half the time.
I never know. You never answer me anyway. Is it a lost cause, to try and
interact with the guy I let take my innocence? I know you don't love me,
but could you at least pretend to tolerate me, if only to appease my lonely
soul? Is that too big of a request for you? Why do I do this to myself? I
don't need you, and you certainly don't need me, another notch on your
secret belt.

[Bambi With Love]

I feel like I am forever broken.
There is this art of me that will never be whole again.
Nothing will ever fix me and I hate thinking that way, but it's better to accept it now.

I just wish someone could see how broken I really am.

[Leisurely]

i'm just done
it's gotten to the point where i'm not sure i can actually pick myself off the ground
the house is a mess, i'm failing pre-cal, i missed the ACT test date, i have no idea what i wanna do with my life, i can't drive, i don't have a job, i'm an emotional wreck, and i have no friends, boyfriend, or family
what am i doing still existing i am not fit for society
i'm pretty sure after a month or two, no one would even remember my name

i'm just not cut out for this whole "life" thing

[Smaller Skies]

Going from having sex twice a week to not having sex at all sucks.
Frick.

[Smaller Skies]

But if I end up with a new boyfriend I hope we have sex more than twice a week. :/

[Smaller Skies]

he stopped texting me right after he asked me to hang out.
Fml.
I'm panicking.
I'll text him tomorrow to make sure he's still coming. :/

[poisonxwine]

Wow, haven't been in here in a couple days. D:
Also.
That feel when you haven't listened to a band in months and then listen to them again. crying

[Smaller Skies]

Woah it's already been a week since we broke up.
Wtf.

[Smaller Skies]

We pretty much were never in a relationship though.
I think we were basically hook up buddies with a relationship label. :/
Messed up crap you are.
I hate calling you my ex.
I think I'll just call you by your name.
I do that to most people who know you.
Everyone else I just say ex because it's easier. :/

[Smaller Skies]

I hate the fact that I want a rebound because you still pop in my head.
I still want you back.
I still want you coming to say sorry to me.
But I don't want to go through that hooking up phase anymore.
I felt like a slut.

Three guys in half a year.
That's messed up.
What was wrong with me?

[La Cantarella]

Please... You're one of the two people I don't want to hate me.

[La Cantarella]

Smaller Skies

I hate the fact that I want a rebound because you still pop in my head.
I still want you back.
I still want you coming to say sorry to me.
But I don't want to go through that hooking up phase anymore.
I felt like a slut.

Five guys in nine months.
That's messed up.
What was wrong with me?

[Essence of Play-Doh]

This isn't really a "dirty little secret," but my music interests have been all over the place. I've been listening to Tyler, The Creator all evening and now I'm listening to Bruno Mars. Just this morning I was listening to Of Mice and Men, The Felix Culpa, and My Chemical Romance.

I love it, actually.

[Smaller Skies]

...
I really miss you....