The other day, Paige told me about how I couldn't know what she felt like because even though I'm Christian, I identify as being straight.
I can't sympathize with the problems LGBTQ people face just because I'm not "one of them"
So everything I felt was in the end, just a show of sorts. Fake.
It got me thinking and I was a bit confused at first.
I mean, why is it that I'm not supposed to be able to understand the pain and problems, but I feel like I do?
That question was haunting me. Haha.
Then, I guess God made me come across this photographer called iO Tillet.
I mean, I was looking for something related to Robots when I just found this video she made at TED.
http://www.ted.com/talks/io_tillett_wright_fifty_shades_of_gay.html
I realized something really important after watching that video, and Maaaaaddd Props to her for coming out with it!
I thought back to everyone I've felt attracted to, and I realized that I've never cared as much about their appearance or their gender, but more like the type of people they are.
I used to call myself pan sexual, but then everyone was doing it and I didn't want to fit into some sort of stupid stereotype. Blah blah blah, I called myself straight because everyone I've dated till now has been a girl.
But I've also flirted around with an ftm or two. I dated a girl who is now on her way to becoming a Guy and quite honestly it has never mattered to me what anyone has carried in their pants. All that mattered was their thoughts, ideas, philosophies etc.
The point is, I like people foro who they are. Nothing else really matters to me.
When I go to church, I get bothered by the way some people out there treat those that are gay or have any other preferences other than 100% straight or male/female.
I'm getting bothered because I'm not 100% straight. I don't exclusively like girls nor do I feel the need to go down on a guy.
I'm bothered that there is no "checkbox" for me.
Why cant I just be me?
I mean, is it wrong for me to be afraid that if I don't conform to a certain way, I'll be pushed into a certain group and be hated by my friends?
Is it also wrong to worry about not conforming to all the standards of that group and finding myself not accepted by them either?
Why cant I just have my own checkbox?
Why does any of this matter? I mean my identity goes beyond my preferences, right? I don't let my preferences define me.
Why do I need a checkbox?
I believe in Jesus, I follow everything he taught. I worship him and all that he said. I believe in miracles as well as evolution and the big bang. I don't believe in hurting someone just because they love someone, or aren't satisfied with who they are.
We are all human in the end, yes?
Then why do we need to classify ourselves?