Sorry my post is mega short.
I don't want to take things too fast and potentially lose one of Amos' reactions
At the same time, I don't know what else to add to this scene.
I think I'm just gonna keep taking baby steps until I get a mega awesome idea to get me back on track with my plan.
I can't sleep, I'm so stressed right now.
And I feel so guilty…
It's making me panic.
I wish I could believe that all the sleep I got through the day is what was making it so hard for me now.
But, I can't… The truth is, I'm not feeling much better than I have been the past few days.
I have absolutely no appetite, everything that isn't water upsets my stomach to some degree, my stomach hurts, as does my head. And I feel weak.
I only ate when I did because I felt so guilty about not eating anything all day… And I told you so I couldn't get out of doing it.
In the afternoon there's supposed to be a meeting with the girl I share the bathroom with, my roommate, my RF, and myself. But, I refuse to go.
This girl has made me sick, and still cleans the bathroom too much [even if it's with something else]. I'm tired of hearing about how she's paranoid that the bathroom will give her lung infections and other ridiculous things.
I refuse to split the cost of cleaners with someone that's just going to waste them by cleaning multiple times a day using too much.
But, I feel so, so horrible and guilty for ignoring the emails, pretending I haven't seen them. And that I'll have to go out of my way to make sure I'm not around, so I don't get forced to go to this meeting I don't want to attend.
I just want to crawl under my blankets and to never come out...