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At least I'm not a liar
At least I'm not a cheat
At least I don't care what these mindless people think of me
10 bucks says you don't have it in you
To conquer fear and quit believing what they tell you to

quick and simple:

name: Trinity
location: Moonlight Island
favorite things: My Bonryu My Snake Friends
six qualities: morbid, Horrid, sarcastic, Closed-minded, scary, Vain,
most often found: Walking on the beach at night
favorite possesion: Soul
dislikes: bad spelling, bad grammar, sunlight, sweat, hicks, cockiness
status: Taken, keeping it that way
religion: Christian


i'm nice to the people who deserve my kindness.
treat me like you want me to treat you.
treat me bad, i treat you worse.

Okay, I will break this down, so it can be understood by your simple minds. I can be a very nice, understanding, friendly person. But, I can also be a very hateful, angry, rude person. It’s your choice. It all depends on how you treat me, if you prejudge me or not, and if you use your brain. You decide. I dislike dealing with ignorant, close minded, uneducated adults. So, if you fall into either category, please don’t waste my time. I come off as a very selfish person. I don’t really think of myself as selfish. More just, self confident, self assured and someone who knows what they want. And, will do anything and everything in their power to get it. I cherish my friends and family more than anything else in the world. They get all my love. I will have their backs till the end of time, as long as they have mine.


People often tell me that my best quality is my honesty. I’m a very honest person. At times, too honest. I’m blunt. I pride myself on being real. I will tell you things, straight up. No beating around the bush, with me. If I dislike you, you will know it. If I like you, you will know it. I will say whatever is on my mind. I feel as though, the reason for this is perhaps the fact that I’ve lied so much in my past. I went through the majority of my life as a huge liar, cheat, and thief. So, maybe now, I’m kind of…overcompensating with my honesty because of that. I don’t mind talking about my life, and my problems. I’m not proud of some things. Nor, am I embarrassed. It is what it is. I’m just trying to live my life, as everyone else is. I’m no different than you. I am not better, or worse. We are equal.

I’m very sarcastic. And, cynical about everything. I can be very obnoxious and crude, depending on the type of mood I’m in. I’m witty, and funny. Laughter is what makes me feel alive. And, what makes my life worth living. My goal in life is really to just laugh and have fun. If you want anything to do with me, you must, have a good sense of humor.

I want to experience, see, touch, hear, and smell, all that is positive in the world. I’ve been to some really dark, depressing, sick, horrible places. I’ve experienced the dark side of life. Now, I want to see the lighter side. I want there to be meaning to and in my life. I want a rich life. Rich in beauty and love. I have goals, dreams, and things I hope to accomplish. I’m going to be someone, you know. I want to get all I can out of my life. And live each day to the fullest. I will not settle for what comes easiest. I will work hard for what I want. I will not just sit back, and waste my life, wishing I had done something else.

I want real, genuine, connections and relationships. I no longer want to waste my time with petty acquaintances. And, people who are doing nothing with themselves. I will not waste my time with that. I want to have beautiful mental connections. I want mental stimulation. I’d much prefer that over clitoral stimulation, any day. Very few people spark my interest or get my attention. I’m bored to death with it. I want intellectual conversations about life, feelings, thoughts, and experiences. I want to get to know people inside, and want people to WANT to get to know me inside. I want my brain to be challenged. I want to think. I want people to make me think. I love talking to people. Really, talking. About quality things, no small talk. I want to learn about strangers. About what they think, feel, and do. I want to learn everything about a person. I want to ask questions. And have them be answered with confidence. I really want to know about trauma people have been through. And, what they think and feel about it. I want to know about their family. How they were raised. Everything. I like talking about myself, don’t get me wrong. But, I’d much rather talk about the other person. I wish everyone would tell me their deepest darkest secrets. And confide in me, over anyone else. I want to be trusted. I want to be loved. I want to be appreciated greatly. I want to know, that if I wasn’t here, things would be different. I want to be noticed. I want attention. I want a lot, don’t I? It’s all possible to get. How, is the question. I want it all now. Instant gratification.

The two things that disgust me more than anything in the world are: men/boys who abuse (physically, mentally, emotionally, sexually, etc) women/girls. Mainly men who sexually abuse close family members (sons/daughters). If I could exterminate any group of people on this planet, that’s who it would be. I hope you live rotten, horrible, painful lives. You will get what you deserve. Another thing that fills me with rage, is, homophobia and gay bashing. I cannot tolerate it.

My life and actions are driven by fear. Everything stems from fear. Anger, depression, anxiety. All fear based when it comes down to it. I am a prisoner of extreme anxiety. It is my ruler, and I am its slave. I have every kind of anxiety you can possibly think of. I have major social anxiety (it may not seem so) and it makes it hard for me to do certain things. I dislike talking on the phone. It makes me so nervous, and I avoid it at all costs. I never call anyone or return phone calls. That’s why I use email as a major source for communication. I can talk to people in person, but the phone, for some reason, has always been a major problem in my life. Strange, I know. I also get especially anxious when driving a car. Mostly when other people are in the car. Or, when I don’t know where I am, or am not familiar with a certain destination I’m trying to get to. I will have really bad panic attacks. And will freeze up and not be able to drive. I have major issues about the way I look. I have very low self esteem (but who doesn’t) and dislike the way I look most of the time. The hair, makeup, clothes, it’s all so you don’t see the real me. My brain tells me, if you did, you wouldn’t like what you’d see. I’m working on that, though. Don’t tell me a damn thing about how I look. Unless it’s positive. I don’t give a ******** if you think I’d “look better with less makeup” or whatever be the case. I don’t give any of you hard times about the way you look. So, leave me alone. I’m harder on myself that anyone could ever be. Trust me, I get enough negative from my own brain. And, that’s something, I can’t get away from. I don’t need your bullshit on top of that.

If you have anything negative to say/think about me. Then, why are you reading my “about me” still? Block me. Do me the favor and just block me. Or, if you want to challenge me, go right ahead. I will accept and defend myself. I will win, of course. But, go ahead and try. Thank you, to those of you, who took the time to read this. I’m sure, everyone looks at everyone’s photos, first and foremost. But it’s real genuine good people who take time to write and read the “about me’s”.

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