i know you wont read this so i can post the truth about how i feel:
i love you
i always will
i miss you so much
and i hate you for leaving me
and now you're with cat i think.
and i hate you so much for it.
and i hate you for lying to me. saying you'd always be there for me. and now you wont even answer my letters
i want you back
i want you to talk to me
i wanted to be with you forever
and i dont care who knows it.
but even if we can't be "together" i want to be your friend
i love you
and you know i always will
i dont lie about things like that
sometimes i wonder
if i had slept with you would you still have left me?
thats the only reason i was going to do it... i didn't want to lose you... couldn't tell you no... i guess i am impressionable...
but now i cry. every day. still. because you aren't there. i know you're holding on to someone else and the thought makes me sick.
sometimes i get so upset i throw up. or pass out. yeah. seriously.
you really hurt me troy.
and the weird thing is?
i still love you as much as i did the day i met you
i dont want to be the little girl who whines about a guy she was inlove with
i always said they were stupid and didn't really love them
but i really really was... am... inlove with you
and there's nothing i can do about it. no matter how much i want to forget i still dream about you and cry about you and imagine your arms around me when i'm upset. it kills me. you killed me. thanks troy. thankyou so much for killing me. i dont know how i'll even date when i'm ungrounded.
i love you so much
and you dont care.
or at least you wont tell me otherwise. your last letter said you loved me...
but that was in july or was it august.... i dont even care anymore...
and i really want to talk to you but you can't seem to get ahold of a phone
dumb s**t... you told me you'd be home thursday night but no
uck... yeah sorry i'm really pissy right now. the pain killers are working but they seem to make me angry and depressed. that or maybe it's just the fact i was all excited because my dad was letting me talk to you but then i couldn't because you didn't come home after work. damn it!!!!!
i miss you too!
even though i was at your house less than 2 hours ago...
so yeah my mom and i sorta discussed birth controll
i think she might put me on it
but to cut down the migranes i get every month though not cuz she thinks i'm having sex. although... i think she suspects me... i said that i think every teen girl should be, if they aren't already, put on birth controll on their 16th birthday. oops... wrong thing to say... so yeah... should have told her then i was a virgin but i wasn't looking at her face... lol.
but now i can talk to her about it. which means when i want to go on it i just tell her. she said she'd freak out but it's better than a pregnancy!
so yeah
i'm in the mood to confuse someone
you shal be my victim
congrats
so yeah... i ♥ u
ok now you know who i am....
damn it i give it away every time!
i can't help it don't pick on me *sniff* :'(
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i love you
i always will
i miss you so much
and i hate you for leaving me
and now you're with cat i think.
and i hate you so much for it.
and i hate you for lying to me. saying you'd always be there for me. and now you wont even answer my letters
i want you back
i want you to talk to me
i wanted to be with you forever
and i dont care who knows it.
but even if we can't be "together" i want to be your friend
i love you
and you know i always will
i dont lie about things like that
sometimes i wonder
if i had slept with you would you still have left me?
thats the only reason i was going to do it... i didn't want to lose you... couldn't tell you no... i guess i am impressionable...
but now i cry. every day. still. because you aren't there. i know you're holding on to someone else and the thought makes me sick.
sometimes i get so upset i throw up. or pass out. yeah. seriously.
you really hurt me troy.
and the weird thing is?
i still love you as much as i did the day i met you
i dont want to be the little girl who whines about a guy she was inlove with
i always said they were stupid and didn't really love them
but i really really was... am... inlove with you
and there's nothing i can do about it. no matter how much i want to forget i still dream about you and cry about you and imagine your arms around me when i'm upset. it kills me. you killed me. thanks troy. thankyou so much for killing me. i dont know how i'll even date when i'm ungrounded.
i love you so much
and you dont care.
or at least you wont tell me otherwise. your last letter said you loved me...
but that was in july or was it august.... i dont even care anymore...
and it's almost october
i miss you...
i've got some in my myspace pictures if you want to actually look at them (or steal them?)
love ya!
again
.....
i love you...
and i really want to talk to you but you can't seem to get ahold of a phone
dumb s**t... you told me you'd be home thursday night but no
uck... yeah sorry i'm really pissy right now. the pain killers are working but they seem to make me angry and depressed. that or maybe it's just the fact i was all excited because my dad was letting me talk to you but then i couldn't because you didn't come home after work. damn it!!!!!
even though i was at your house less than 2 hours ago...
so yeah my mom and i sorta discussed birth controll
i think she might put me on it
but to cut down the migranes i get every month though not cuz she thinks i'm having sex. although... i think she suspects me... i said that i think every teen girl should be, if they aren't already, put on birth controll on their 16th birthday. oops... wrong thing to say... so yeah... should have told her then i was a virgin but i wasn't looking at her face... lol.
but now i can talk to her about it. which means when i want to go on it i just tell her. she said she'd freak out but it's better than a pregnancy!
i'm in the mood to confuse someone
you shal be my victim
congrats
so yeah... i ♥ u
ok now you know who i am....
damn it i give it away every time!
i can't help it don't pick on me *sniff* :'(
yes verboten love...
love you... later -wilk-