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Report | 07/31/2014 5:01 pm

_JoshuaBear_

It's weird watching a movie alone

Report | 07/31/2014 4:55 pm

_JoshuaBear_

It's weird watching a movie alone

Report | 07/31/2014 4:23 pm

_JoshuaBear_

I'll be out until like 1130 or 12 sorry. If you decide you want to text or something my phone is on me.

Report | 07/31/2014 4:17 pm

_JoshuaBear_

I'm here whenever you want me. And I can drive. So I am physically here for you too.

Report | 07/31/2014 4:10 pm

_JoshuaBear_

At the theater gonna see hercules and the purge

Report | 07/31/2014 3:12 pm

_JoshuaBear_

Okay. Well then I'll just wait.I have to drive now to make the movie in time, if you decide to talk to me I have not blocked you on anything. Gaia sucks on my phone. I will check it, but I don't know if I will be able to read or respond at all. I love you I'll drive safely.

Report | 07/31/2014 3:07 pm

_JoshuaBear_

I'm scared too but I'm still trying... :'(

Report | 07/31/2014 3:05 pm

_JoshuaBear_

I'm scared too but I'm still trying... :'(

Report | 07/31/2014 3:00 pm

_JoshuaBear_

Can we please just try...

Report | 07/31/2014 2:57 pm

_JoshuaBear_

Your fur color changed *brush*

Report | 07/31/2014 2:55 pm

_JoshuaBear_

I'm sorry.
It's hard to give the person you love space when all you want to do is apologize enough hoping it will fix things.
I don't want you away, I want you close to me...
I am sorry, I suck at this 'time apart' crap I hate it.
I'm not happy, I'm really on edge and depressed and I just want to make it all better :'(

Report | 07/31/2014 2:48 pm

_JoshuaBear_

I wouldn't be begging you for days on end and filling your voicemail despite having my number blocked if I wanted to just turn around and hurt you.

Report | 07/31/2014 2:39 pm

_JoshuaBear_

I am a changed man and if you give me a chance you would see that.
If I'm still not changed, you lose nothing by giving me a chance because you can just walk right away knowing that you were right in leaving me all along and move on in your life.
If I ******** up again you wont love me anymore, it wont sit in your mind or weigh on your heart, you'll just go and you'll be happy to go.
But if you give me the chance and I am not lying and I am actually changed, then we are just back on the path to a future together that we talked and dreamed of.
I don't want anybody else Alison.

Report | 07/31/2014 2:30 pm

_JoshuaBear_

I lived daily fearing you would hurt me again Alison, I know how that feels. I really do. I probably told you once a day or more that I was afraid of you, or of you hurting me. I know how you feel. I know how to be better for you.

Report | 07/31/2014 2:29 pm

_JoshuaBear_

This is why I said we should start slow.
I haven't hurt you yet, have I?
No hurting you in two days vs hurting you daily.
That's... *Connor tallies up numbers, fixes glasses* *A 200% increase in not-hurt*
Thank you Connor. *gives treat*

Report | 07/31/2014 2:22 pm

_JoshuaBear_

I do love myself.
I picked myself up and pushed myself to break limits and achieve an important thing in my life while you weren't talking to me.
I wouldn't do that if I hated myself.
And yes it isn't right that it took a break up, but quite often when we argue I can only finally get through to you after telling you it's your only chance to talk to me or something.
Maybe this is just how it is supposed to happen, how I was supposed to make my changes. You made yours passively over time, I needed something to actually
happen, an actual event to change me.
I am not making any excuses for my ******** up's and I am not guilting you for yours.
Can't we just agree that we both made mistakes, both hurt each other, but we still love each other so we should just be together...

Report | 07/31/2014 2:12 pm

_JoshuaBear_

So we had a big fight okay fine apologies were said, time was taken, we're talking again just fine now so why pretend we can't make it work all the way again :'(
It didnt' even phase me to think you've been drinking at home or are going out to Jessica's I dont' care I know you didnt and wont do bad

Report | 07/31/2014 2:03 pm

_JoshuaBear_

You know very well why I'm crying and how to fix it.
I know I'm not allowed to have my feelings fixed now though I have to wait and hope and pray you'll ever want me again :'( I'm sorry I can't stop okay! I stare at this site half the day just waiting for you because it gives me some hope you might come back :'( I can't help it!

Report | 07/31/2014 1:57 pm

_JoshuaBear_

********.
I'm sorry, I don't want to push you away.
I just want things to go back to how we were :'(
Dammit I'm sorry Alison.

Report | 07/31/2014 1:55 pm

_JoshuaBear_

It's never too soon for me, I'm just always too late.
Ugh.
I'm trying to keep emotions out of talking to you because I know you're going to put your walls up whenever I touch on anything emotional at all.
But god dammit.
I want a ******** time machine.
I'm not angry at you I'm angry at myself.

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