We all carry these things inside that no one else can see.
They hold us down like anchors. They drown us out at sea...
Sui. Female. 23. I'm currently living in Southern California at the moment, I'm hoping to very move soon... maybe Oregon or Washington? Tattoo artist/piercer in training. I recently came back to gaia after a long break. I'm a pretty friendly person in general unless if I'm in a bad mood then you don't want to be anywhere near me. I tend to snap at others and let's just say... it doesn't end well. If you pissed me off, I'm going to let you know. If you say something that I disagree with, I'm going to tell you my opinion. I'm tired of people just brushing me aside and acting like nothing I say matters. I'm not going to let others push me around anymore other then that, you don't really have to worry. Wait, I lied. If I'm not in a good mood you shouldn't speak to me at all. I might snap at you and well, let's just say, I'm a real d**k when I do that s**t and I won’t apologies afterwards. See, what I mean by me being a d**k if pissed.
I have a OCD, panic disorder and anxiety disorder which effects me on a daily basic but now, I've come to accept it's a part of who I am. Thought, it's not fun for me to deal with. I especially my OCD since it keeps me from doing things I want too. Aside from that, I have bad health as well which suck a lot. I tend to miss out on a lot things so I try my best to do the things I want to do.
The Scream by Edward Munch pretty much expresses my life, love, fear, death, and melancholia. I like different and strange things. Things people find weird, I find them interesting. My view on beauty is probably something that you think is ugly. Unlike everyone else I look at things differently which is why I'm known to be "odd" to everyone I met. Though, there are those lucky few who think I'm quite interesting.
I've had to deal with A LOT drama and I'm so tired of it. If your someone who loves drama, gtfo and never talk to me. I don't need someone who will bring drama into my life. I ended up all my irl friends and you know what, I don't give a s**t anymore. They only saw me as an "option" and I didn't want to be surrounded by people like that. Now, I rather have one good friend then a bunch of fake friends. Nor do I like people who are "fake" and only come running back to me when they need a friend. Or people who only become my friends just because they like me for my looks. IT'S ******** UP. I hate when people treat me nicely for my looks and throw me away like some doll just because I don't want to date them. I have my own feelings as well. Assholes. Seriously, I hate people like that.
Due to this, I have major trusting issues. I lost all my faith in trusting others. My trust in others is quite harder now... I don't know if there anyone who I can trust anymore. I also dislike others who push their feelings onto me. I'm not a doll. I have feelings even if I don't like to show them. Yet there are few people I found myself opening too which is scary and exciting at the same time. So don't get mad at me if I don't decide to tell you anything.
Everyone has their secrets
Things I like;; Homestuck. Adventure Time. Regular Show. DropDead. Let the Right One In, Requiem for a Dream, Poke’mon, Zombies. Girls. Boys. Craig Owens and Matt Good are my role models. I’ve met Matt Good at Warped Tour and he was a wonderful guy. He was nice enough to chat with me before he had to leave. I hope to meet Craig Owens soon. Horror movies. Austin Carlile. Texting. Cosplaying.
Dislike;; I don’t really like a lot of breakfast food, like pancakes, waffles (the food, not my cute creepy bear), bacon. Others foods I don’t like is apple sauce, pudding, tomatoes, oh and I don’t like apple juice either. I don’t like birds. Scissors. Getting attack by socks. My health. Fakes. Phone calls. Drama.
Music I love;;
Destroy Rebuild Until God Shows, Of Mice and Men, Bring me the Horizon, Architects, Woe, is Me, Sleeping with Sirens, Covette, Foster the People, Dance Gavin Dance, Falling in Reverse, Chapters, The Almost, Motionless in White, Blessthefall, The World Alive, Miss May I, In Fear and Faith, ACODA, Chiodos, Katsumoto, Attack Attack, The Casino Brawl, Cinematic Sunrise, Gorillaz, The Devil Wears Prada, Cute Is What We Aim For, Emarosa, EatmewhileImhot!, Finch, The Human Abstract, From First to Last, Hopes Dies Last, Just Surrender, Like Moths to Flames, Never Shout Never, Suicide Silence, UnderOATH (I only like their old stuff, I dislike their new stuff), We Came As Romans, 30 Seconds to Mars, and little more...
...I look up to the sky, there may be nothing there to see.
But if I don't believe in him, why would he believe in me?
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Stay Awake I Feel to Lonely
It's a strange feeling, to think your life is going to end at some point. It's only natural that it will, of course, but usually you live your life without thinking about things like that. But I’m scared of the fate that will become mine...
She's not alone
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