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The last one to die please turn off the light

How far would you go to be free?

The voices tell me you hav chocolate... Gimmie!

Its not the darkness you fear... its the unknown

You never know how much you love something till its gone

I'm not an illusion. So why is everybody ignoring me?


If wishes were horses
Then beggars would ride.
If sighs made things lighter
Then dreamers would fly...

Starlight, star bright, first star I see tonight
I wish I may, I wish I might
Have this wish, I wish tonight...

WHISPER

Catch me as I fall,
Say you're here and it's all over now,
Speaking to the atmosphere,
No one's here and I fall into myself,
This truth drives me into madness,
I know I can stop the pain if I will it all away,

You're laughing, but it's not real. You have no idea what I just said do you? You're minds elsewhere, with Him. You have feelings for him, I know you do. You're always watching him, even when you're with me. I don't understand what does he have that I don't? You're supposed to be my best friends or have you forgotten? You don't see me anymore, you don't see anyone but Him.

Don't turn away,
Don't give into the pain,
Don't try to hide,
Though they're screaming your name,
Don't close your eyes,
God knows what lies behind them,
Don't turn out the light,
Never sleep never die,

I don't know what to do. You'll never notice me will you?
Later in my room, alone like always I try to decide how to show what I feel, how to make you feel it to. I can't just give up, even though I know it's useless. I've lost you to him; I was too slow, too scared to show you before.
When I finally leave my room I hear your laughter. Real laughter. Not the distracted, pitiful thing you gave me earlier today. Silently I follow the sound and come to His room.

I'm frightened by what I see,
But somehow I know that there's much more to come,
Immobilized by my fear,
And soon to be blinded by tears,
I can stop the pain if will it all away,

You're kissing Him. I feel my heart brake but I smile and congratulate you. If you bothered to look you would find they were fake but you're rather preoccupied right now. I want to be happy for you. Glad that you've found happiness but I can’t be. I'm a b*****d. I'm selfish. I want it to be me who touches you, pleasures you, makes your smile light up your whole face.
But I'm not. And I can't be now can I?

Don't turn away,
Don't give into the pain,
Don't try to hide,
Though they're screaming your name,
Don't close your eyes,
God knows what lies behind them,
Don't turn out the light,
Never sleep never die,

Silence. That's what I like about the night. There's no one here to make me want to kill myself. Or that was so before, you've contaminated my nights now. All I can think about is you. With Him. Feeling that happiness I want to make you feel. Cuddled in His arms.
My decision is made for me by your cry of ecstasy. Tears leave trails down my face. I know I can't survive this.

Fallen angels at my feet
Whispered voices at my ear
Death before my eyes lying next to me I fear
She beckons me shall I give in,
Upon my end shall I begin,
Forsaking all I've fallen far I rise to meet my end,

The pain is sharp and quick. I'm to numb to feel it after the initial contact. It's too quick for me to contemplate the consequences of my action. There is lots of blood. It's everywhere. I flick the tap on and watch as the water and blood mix as they slowly swirl down the drain. I smile slowly watching my life go down the drain, literally. My eyelids lower and I wonder. Who will notice I'm gone? Certainly not you.

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Fatesong

Report | 12/14/2006 4:39 pm

Fatesong

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Report | 12/13/2006 7:39 pm

Tigrrluver

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Report | 12/03/2006 8:49 pm

Tigrrluver

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Report | 11/27/2006 11:10 pm

Slippery Bob

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bodies of water

Report | 11/25/2006 10:58 pm

bodies of water

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Report | 11/24/2006 1:47 pm

chienne_chocolae_ameir

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chienne_chocolae_ameir

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