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Report | 09/02/2017 10:11 pm

Voka

Lol, whatever works for you.

That is DISTURBINGLY close to how my life went in my early 20s.
Like, to the point of freaking me out a little.

Report | 09/02/2017 9:56 pm

Voka

Honestly, I don't think I'd HAVE to roofie you. That's just a waste of perfectly good drugs.
XD

I'm already poor and just barely not homeless! I'll be waiting for you!
We can just wander the country and live off the land.
By land I mean doing truckers for money and things.

Don't steal my idea tho, that's kinda really my plan for when I can't live here anymore. Just gonna be a hooker again. Not ideal, but it works, I guess.

Report | 09/02/2017 9:31 pm

Voka

I actually really want to do that. There's a lot of money in it, but I'm pry too unhealthy or something, I dunno.
The egg thing, not the roofie thing.
Well...

Report | 09/02/2017 9:09 pm

Voka

YES OMG. I WOULD PAY ANYTHING FOR A LIAM NEESON.
Hell, I'd give my left hand to just smell him once.

Report | 09/02/2017 8:55 pm

Voka

I think, by definition, you have to be in it just for the money, lol.

Man, I must not have been charging enough, because I certainly couldn't afford a JDM. That's a nice thought tho.

Report | 09/02/2017 8:05 pm

Voka

I'm lucky that my glasses are still in good shape and working pretty well, even tho they are a few years old now. One pair is about to break, but the other is practically like brand new.

I don't even want to splurge, I just want a couple things. Hell, it'd be amazing if I could just even get a few things I actually NEED.

Honestly, it's really not that bad. Frankly, a lot of older guys aren't as sexually active anyway, so it's much easier. I also find them much less annoying and needy than younger guys. Since I'm not capable of emotional attachment, that's the kind of relationship I prefer.

Report | 09/02/2017 7:45 pm

Voka

Right? I used to be a sugar momma, I think I've earned it.
XD
Now I'm too much of a wuss to ask my bf for a couple bucks for a set of drawing pencils, and too poor/cheap to buy my own.

Report | 09/02/2017 7:28 pm

Voka

Yeah, could be. Being so busy doesn't really help the stress.

Well, it's your own fault for not adopting me.
mad

Report | 09/02/2017 7:06 pm

Voka

Okay, I'll shoot you a pm in a while to hammer out a last few details and then we can start.

That's okay. I miss the texting, but I very much understand. I do the same thing.
I'm in a pretty.. interesting mood myself right now.

Report | 09/02/2017 6:53 pm

Voka

I wasn't sure since I asked you a while back and never got an answer and didn't want to bother you by asking again. And since almost no one wants to talk to me these days so I can't bother myself to try anymore. It gets too hard after a while, even just talking to people like you and a few others.

Report | 08/28/2017 7:31 pm

Voka

Now watch The A-Team! I love it so much. It doesn't have JDM but it has Liam Neeson and he is the sexiest man ever.

Report | 08/28/2017 7:09 pm

Voka

OMG YES ITS GREAT

Report | 08/25/2017 6:33 pm

Voka

Would you like to talk about/start rp? No pressure. Whatever you want. I thought it might be a distraction.
=3

Report | 08/25/2017 2:32 pm

Voka

I really should be walking, but I feel so weird walking around town for some reason.
I wish I could go with you. I love the gym and miss it so much. Used to go as often as I could.

Report | 08/25/2017 2:28 pm

Voka

Me. Too.

I watch everything. I'm mostly interested in calories, protein, and sodium tho.
Sugar isn't a huge factor for me tho since I'm not huge into sweets and already avoided it pretty well anyway.

Yeah, still good.
And if you were gaining any muscle mass it'd be sort of a push, or you might even start to gain, since muscle weighs more than fat.
Tho I dunno if you are with such low levels of activity, but again, being huge it doesn't take much to build muscle.

Report | 08/25/2017 1:57 pm

Voka

I don't really understand why you wouldn't still be losing weight. Even someone half our size eating that few calories would be losing a ton.
At the weight we're at, even with the lowered metabolism we both have from not eating, we should be able to eat 1700 a day and still lose weight, just not quickly.
I'm trying to get at least 1000 a day, usually more like 1200, which is absolutely ridiculous for my size, but I'm still losing like 5-10lbs a week.

Yeah, that's the real problem. I started getting hungry a little again from PMS, but I can feel it wearing off again already. Haven't eaten today, don't want to.
Cottage cheese is good, one of the few things I'm still eating these days, tho I'm starting to get sick of it too.

I know. My whole life has been that for a while now, and probably will be until I finally kill myself.
I keep telling myself to just do it because things aren't going to get better, but I'm a wuss.
Being a wuss is the only thing that's kept me alive these past few years, to be perfectly honest.
I have an amazing pain tolerance, but the real fear is not succeeding and messing myself all up so bad my life is actually worse and I'm incapable of trying again.
So I've decided to just be miserable until I get thrown out and die in the streets like an animal and no one is any the wiser.

Report | 08/25/2017 1:31 pm

Voka

I've got my sister, but I don't think she likes me anymore. I'm not even talking to her now.
That other friend is just a douche. Invited me out again last night and didn't go. ******** sick of that.
Yeah, it can be hard, but there are people who understand.

Yeah, it sucks. I feel like it's impossible to be happy there.
I don't like feeling gross, but it's disgusting when people suddenly like you because you're skinny.

That's great! That's a lot. I've done about the same but you can hardly tell and that blows.
That's weird. I wouldn't expect you to plateau for some while still.
How many calories a day do you typically get?

I very rarely leave the house. Unfortunately, that just makes me more anxious about it.
I got nowhere to go tho, so I don't care. Screw it.

The lady I live with is super nasty. If not for that and all the animal abuse it would be nice here.
The house is so nasty tho you wouldn't even believe it if you didn't see it. And smell it.

Selling your body is a lot worse than you'd expect. I don't recommend it.
But I was going off on a rant last night that ended with "I'm so ******** screwed I can't even hook for money out here!"
Which I really don't want to, but I hate to know just how few options I have.
By few, I mean none. Whatsoever. I just have to be miserable here until I'm homeless and die.

Report | 08/25/2017 1:09 pm

Voka

I know. It wasn't directed at you, just like 98% of my "friends", both irl and on here.
I've given up on caring about eating. I'm eating enough to probably not die.

That sucks. People are such assholes. Yet another reason I hate to go anywhere.
And speaking from experience, once you do lose weight and all those pricks are suddenly sooooo nice, it's actually worse.
That is scary. I've been stressing they day mum retires and decides to move because then I'm homeless, and that's not even for at least four years.

That's good tho! Now if you can get the husband to eat at home.

I totally get that. I regularly drop off the grid for years at a time.

That would pry help. I've never really been able to take most meds without really weird and much worse side effects.

Report | 08/25/2017 12:46 pm

Voka

Yeah, it's okay, I know. But like most everyone else has stopped talking to me and I just dunno wtf I'm doing to these people.
Used to be people only hated me irl, but now they just do everywhere.

Report | 08/23/2017 4:25 pm

Voka

Well, that's something. Hopefully it will work out.

You should be able to get a job somewhere, just maybe somewhere awful, and pry for minimum wage.
Course, I have no idea what the job market is like anywhere else, but there's usually jobs around at least that no one else wants.

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