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Report | 02/28/2009 12:02 pm

Drowkyez

va jay jay

Report | 02/28/2009 10:48 am

OMG NO!!! you sooo don't want one. xlolz

AND I MISSED THAT!! crying

OH MY!!!!!! well unless you notice the way the arms go back.. D:
but.... sexy trans avi!!!
hahaha

i know right!??
but i guess i should go.. it's his birfday gonk
xlolz

Report | 02/28/2009 10:40 am

Poetiic Tragedy

i work.. at a baseball stadium.. in the concessions gonk

woot!! i missed the last session D:

midget banana!! biggrin

i knowwwww im sooo hungryyyyyyy

but my parents are gonna make me get in the car for 45 minutes to go see my brother sad

Report | 02/28/2009 10:36 am

Phoenixliv

Don't fret m'dear, I used to work at a bookstore before the camera shops wink ya pick up a couple book suggestions in that line of employment. Discworld is a fantasy world that, while being fantastical with faeries, witches, ogres, vampires, wizards and all it still has amazing parallels to our own world. Most of it doesn't need to be read in order but there are some recurring characters and ongoing plots too. I started reading it with the Hogfather - a satire of Christmas ... and religion ^_^ Kinda longish quote time!

" "All right," said Susan, "I'm not stupid. You're saying humans need ... fantasies to make life bearable."
No. Humans need fantasy to be human. To be the place where the falling angel meets the rising ape.
"Tooth fairies? Hogfathers?"
Yes. As practice. You have to start out learning to believe the little lies.
"So we can believe the big ones?"
Yes. Justice. Mercy. Duty. That sort of thing.
"They're not the same at all!"
Take the universe and grind it down to the finest powder and sieve it through with the finest sieve and then show me one atom of justice, one molecule of mercy. And yet you act as if there were some sort of rightness in the universe by which it may be judged.
"Yes. But people have got to believe that or what's the point — "
My point exactly."

Report | 02/28/2009 10:32 am

Poetiic Tragedy

a stupid customer service meeting. UGH i hatteeee my job crying crying crying
CMA is tonight gonk

o.0 yummy! i haven't eaten yet D:
but.. bananas are teh nummness!

Report | 02/28/2009 10:19 am

Phoenixliv

He's the guy who wrote the Shannara series but this one's more fun. Oooh speaking of fun Terry Pratchett's Discworld series is the SHIZZZZZZ!

Report | 02/28/2009 10:18 am

Poetiic Tragedy

you're not i saidd!!!!! xd

ugh i knowwwwwwwwwww GAY!!!!!

im greatttt . i just had to sit threw an hour and a half long meeting that ive already been through twice before. ugh!!
xlolz

you?

Report | 02/28/2009 10:04 am

Poetiic Tragedy

sarcasm? nawwwww
HAHAHAA
no you're not emo!! xd

idkk but its making my avi cheaper and cheaperrrr gonk

i have a fire and ice whip.. and they got up to like 85 k... now i think they're like 50k D:

haha nice!! mucho golides!!!!!

Report | 02/28/2009 9:34 am

Phoenixliv

It's about a trial lawyer who's bored with life stumbles upon an add for a magical kingdom for sale in this catalog for the mega-uber-rich. He decides to buy it and the rest is about his mis/adventures as king ^_^ It's fantastic!

Report | 02/28/2009 8:23 am

AppleJuiceOfLove

lol yeah ^.^
so how have you been?

Report | 02/28/2009 8:04 am

CrustiestJuggler

Haha, I hope I don't get whatever is going around.
And damn, I'm glad you remembered that before you got back together with the sonofabitch.

Report | 02/28/2009 5:39 am

Battery Operated Man

Well, thanks for the birthday wishes regardless. I'm not sure who you are either... but I delete people I haven't talked to in a month or so, sorry dear.

Report | 02/28/2009 5:10 am

Slamwich

I dunno I just haven't sat down and did it recently. Not saying I wouldnt though, just haven't thought about it lately lol

Report | 02/28/2009 12:54 am

ZygoteLegion

No prob. I feel disoriented, too. My right hand's thumb joint is so swollen and blue. D: It stings a lot. And it's almost 4am.. I guess I'm ALLOWED to be disoriented. (Which is why I'm going to bed now.)

GOOD NIGHT!

Glad you feel better. *huggles*

Report | 02/28/2009 12:53 am

ZygoteLegion

Well, good. If you ever do feel like writing him an email later, follow those steps. Though, honestly, it wouldn't be a bad thing cutting him out of your life entirely. And I think you probably should do that. And it wouldn't hurt to send him that email THEN (like the example I wrote) telling him that he's more or less a bad habit, unhealthy, and that you're quitting it. Like smoking.

I found out today from my ex, that I still talk to, that I broke his heart. But I kinda knew that already. But it was the first he spoke of it. Calvin's not a great person. He says a lot of insulting, mean things by accident. But that's what makes it easier to forgive. He's just that much of an idiot. It really is by accident, not maliciousness. But I broke up with him because all he did was b***h, moan, complain, whine, cry, and compare me to his mom and brother. He'd get into funks, I tried to help... and nothing worked. He'd just cry and whine all the time. So I broke up with him. And I found out that he loved me. Well, I guess that sucks to be him. As I told him, "That's the first I'm hearing of it, you know." XD Oh well... I TRIED to get him to open up, he didn't, and so I broke up with him because the relationship was a sham and all he seemed to want out of me was sex and head scratches. And I told him as much. He apologized, though, for spending the relationship preoccupied with himself, being homesick, and giving me the impression that he just didn't care. It's too late now, though, for him. But it's nice to hear him apologize in earnest, not just because he thinks it'll shut me up. (He used to do that when we were dating.)

As for Randy, yes it was rude. The friends I don't blame. I'm not part of their responsibility. But as much as Randy says he doesn't like them, it seems odd to ignore me in lieu of playing videogames. And I told him as much. I gave it three shots and he ignores me when they're around, I told him. And he said it only LOOKED that way. I told him that's about as cliche a lie as can be. XD Long story short he ended up begging for me to come back inside (as we were standing in the rain) and let him prove to me that he didn't mean to ignore me (with the injured hand). We'll see if it happens again. XD (I mean, honestly.. you wanted me to believe that I wasn't being ditched for the people he said he didn't even like when no one was talking to me? Yeah, right!)

And yes, a collar. I like collars, actually. It's usually a sub thing to do, but I like them a lot. And so I wanted to get a collar (red or black) and then get a tag at the pet store... maybe a heart shape (or a star if they have it) and put a name on it. But not my own. Something more exotic and prettier than just plain old Cassie. XD

Report | 02/28/2009 12:31 am

Poetiic Tragedy

D: you? emo? nawww
hahaha

o.0. ....... i ... sold em :

Report | 02/28/2009 12:25 am

ZygoteLegion

Ok, your problems first. (It's about time someone put your problems before their own, isn't it?)

Brandon's a douche. We've established this. So I don't need to go into it and say "Hey, girl, he's not worth it." Because you already know that. And you're a very smart, wise girl for your age. And you should take that as a huge compliment coming from someone who's very smart and wise for HER age. So I know what I'm lookin' at when I see you. You're a great person. And this is like buying a $1 million DOG HOUSE. The dog doesn't care if it's a wooden crate or a miniature scale model of the Biltmore Estate. All it cares about is if it is out of the rain.

Brandon is the dog. He doesn't care if the girl he's with is worth her weight in gold, silver, and good advice. All he cares about is if he's "out of the rain". She can be a wooden crate for all he cares. Only someone of intellectual capabilities HIGHER than a dog can appreciate that this is "zomfg an accurate to scale model of the actual Biltmore Estate!!!" You definitely need to know what you're looking at to be able to appreciate it. Brandon... he's a loser. And I could come up with a thousand MORE metaphors about how stupid he is. Funny, ironic, and scathingly accurate metaphors.

But the truth is this. If you write him a message telling him how you feel, it won't fix anything. It may not even make you feel better. I'm not rattling around inside your brain but I know there are two reasons someone would write an email to someone they never intend to talk to again. Either, a) their therapist said they should vent (which really only means getting the last word in in an immature game of who has the last word), or b) they're looking for some glimmer of hope that THIS time it will be what changes the person's mind and they'll come back. I suppose very rarely there's c) because they need to say it to be able to let go. This doesn't generally come after months of saying how you feel and being made to feel a fool about feeling what you feel.

So I wouldn't recommend writing him an email to tell you how you feel. Because it WON'T teach him the lesson. Again, the dog metaphor--- you can try a hundred times to teach a dog to say "spaghetti" but it isn't CAPABLE of saying it. It has no lips to speak with. Brandon is that ill-equipped to deal with your email. He will do what he's always done. He will email you back calling you irrational, wrong, and whatever. And out of curiosity you'll READ that email instead of just deleting it and forgetting about Brandon entirely. Because I've got a feeling that once you've loved someone you always do, or at least a part of you does. That's the HORRIBLE curse of oxytocin, the bonding chemical that goes off in our brain when we're in a relationship. Sex, touching, or even just staring into each other's eyes for a little while all cause sparks of this. And each time bonds you a little more. Your brain has been trained to want to trust and like him. Yes, your brain is wrong. But thanks to bonding hormones you're bonded to an a**. (Trust me... I'm also having to fight it to stay on course with Randy. Revenge must be my priority at all times. I must never forget. And being AWARE of the hormone and the tendencies it will cause in me help. Now I know my plan will work because I know not to look in his eyes too much.)

Anyway, my point is that Brandon won't understand it. So make TRIPLE sure that you're writing this for the purpose of being able to let go. Do some soul searching. Ask yourself, HONESTLY (not in just one day or anything) if you want to write this email because you're hoping he'll learn his lesson and be a BETTER person and come back to you as that better person. Or if you actually want to write this letter because you hope it will hurt his feelings. Or if you want to write this letter because you hope that he'll learn his lesson and be better to the next girl on his list.

My advice to you, because he's so arrogant and dense, is that i

Report | 02/28/2009 12:19 am

Poetiic Tragedy

aww noooo
don't be depresseddddd
bad emo!!!!!!!!!!!!!

you'll get there!!!

Report | 02/27/2009 11:45 pm

Poetiic Tragedy

haha partysss are funnn!!!!!

o.0
noooesss.
sorries sad

Report | 02/27/2009 11:39 pm

Poetiic Tragedy

AWWWWWW LUCKYYYYYYYY

i wanna be there NOWWWW and fking party
NOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW
gonk

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