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and it reaks of patchouli oil. (in a good way) the moon glows through the blinds of the nailed shut window, and im wishing that i could play freeze tag with the world. but i am here and no one else is and that can only mean im talking to myself again. its 3:37 a.m. and no one knows how to pull me from this state of being. and i love it. this silence is bursting my ear drums and i rustle the blankets just to hear the noise of fabrics rubbing against eachother. i pretend someone can see me so i dont go insane from the fact that no one knows im here. i am burning the incense that was given to me by the gypsy at the fair. she winked at me and said, "i can see youre looking for a fill in that hole in your heart." or whatever. but i can see that even though she was right, that i could be burning down the god damned house with this incense and i still wouldnt find what i was looking for. the only light is the glow from the fiery red alarm clock numbers and the orange glow from the end of the incense. i feel as though if i sit very still, everything that i am waiting for, whatever that is, will appear in great numbers and smiling faces. i am sitting in the fetal position, leaning against the metal frame that is my bed. i can vaguely see piles of clothes sprawled across my room, and the dark reflection of myself in the tall mirror. i move approximately 1 1/2 feet to the right so i dont have to look at myself. it is now 3:52 and i can here a dog barking ceaselessly at nothing. my phone is vibrating softly in my purse, but i refuse to answer. what would i say? i fall over from dizziness and i can once again see my face staring back at me. we are laying on the floor staring at eachother. me and myself. flying sounds too good right now. but how much is too good? i could fly right the hell out of here, and know that no one would care. but i am chained to my bed post, as i am chained to living my life like i think everyone thinks i am living it up to the standards of society. who the knows? maybe i am. i see one star, peering through a crack in window. more like a gaping hole that was a result of violent throwing on my part. its peeping through the blinds and the hole. i make a wish. it wasnt worth the effort of thinking of one, because it turned out to be a satelite. my nails are too long and the skin on my arm noticed that before my brain did. i am aware of the day's make up traveling downward, as gravity sometimes does, under my eyes. my knotted hair is tangled in the d**k of my necklace and i rip it out. i know my eyes are swelling and i need to sleep. i crawl into the warm comfort of my fuzzy blue blanket and wait for sleep to take me. as i am waiting, i am feeling like i could sink down about 6 million feet in the ground. then i sleep.

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ll D i n o C r a k e r ll Report | 10/16/2008 4:06 pm
ll D i n o C r a k e r ll
fine and you
ll D i n o C r a k e r ll Report | 10/15/2008 9:15 pm
ll D i n o C r a k e r ll
ellu^^
ll D i n o C r a k e r ll Report | 10/15/2008 6:55 pm
ll D i n o C r a k e r ll
well bye bai



my eyes hurt O_O
Taeryyn Report | 10/15/2008 6:48 pm
Taeryyn
Well, it's good that it's not a come on, since (as I'm sure you can see from my profile) I'm not into girls. User Image
ll D i n o C r a k e r ll Report | 10/15/2008 6:45 pm
ll D i n o C r a k e r ll
yea i nu



mabye if i get chu nu u ill add you ^^



i can be a bicth at timesx3



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where did u see me at?
Taeryyn Report | 10/15/2008 6:42 pm
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It's not. User Image
ll D i n o C r a k e r ll Report | 10/15/2008 6:40 pm
ll D i n o C r a k e r ll
okay



i dont like jokes or i dont play around like dat

with random people.



and i dont take random friend request nither
Taeryyn Report | 10/15/2008 6:34 pm
Taeryyn
Why??
ll D i n o C r a k e r ll Report | 10/15/2008 6:32 pm
ll D i n o C r a k e r ll
no

im a girl



and ******** off



im blocking you cuz your annoing me-explain who you are and i migth be nice
ll D i n o C r a k e r ll Report | 10/15/2008 6:28 pm
ll D i n o C r a k e r ll
who are you?

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But, soft! what light through yonder window breaks?
It is the east, and Juliet is the sun.
Arise, fair sun, and kill the envious moon,
Who is already sick and pale with grief,
That thou her maid art far more fair than she:
Be not her maid, since she is envious;
Her vestal livery is but sick and green

THE SINS of Kalamazoo are neither scarlet nor crimson.
The sins of Kalamazoo are a convict gray, a dishwater drab.
And the people who sin the sins of Kalamazoo are neither scarlet nor crimson.
They run drabs and grays-and some of them sing they shall be washed whiter than snow-and some: We should worry.
Yes, Kalamazoo is a spot on the map
And the passenger trains stop there
And the factory smokestacks smoke
And the grocery stores are open Saturday nights
And the streets are free for citizens who vote
And inhabitants counted in the census.
Saturday night is the big night.
Listen with your ears on a Saturday night in Kalamazoo
And say to yourself: I hear America, I hear, what do I Hear?
Main street there runs through the middle of the town
And there is a dirty post office.
And a dirty city hall
And the United States flag cries, cries the Stars and Stripes to the four winds on Lincoln's birthday and Fourth of July.
Kalamazoo kisses a hand to something far off.
Kalamazoo calls to a long horizon, to a shivering silver angel, to a creeping mystic what-is-it.
"We're here because we're here," is the song of Kalamazoo.
"We don't know where we're going but we're on our way," are the words
There are hound dogs of bronze on the public square, hound dogs looking far beyond public square.
Sweethearts there in Kalamazoo
Go to the general delivery window of the postoffice
And speak their names and ask for letters
And ask again, "Are you sure there is nothing for me?
I wish you'd look again-there must be a letter for me."
And sweethearts go to the city hall
And tell there names and say, "We want a license."
And they go to an installment house and buy a bed on time and a clock
And the children grow up asking each other, "What can we do to kill time?"
They grow up and go to the railroad station and buy tickets for Texas, Pennsylvania, Alaska.
"Kalamazoo is all right," they say. "But I want to see the world."
And when they have looked the world over they come back saying it is all like Kalamazoo.
The trains come in from the east and hoot for the crossings, and buzz away to the peach country and Chicago to the west
Or they come from the west and shoot on to the Battle Creek breakfast bazaars
And the speedbug heavens of Detroit.
"I hear America, I hear, what do I hear?"
Said a loafer lagging along on the sidewalks of Kalamazoo, Lagging along and asking questions, reading signs.
Oh yes, there is a town named Kalamazoo,
A spot on the map where the trains hesitate.
I saw the sign of a five and ten cent store there
And the Standard Oil Company and the International Harvester
And a graveyard and a ball grounds
And a short order counter where a man can get a stack of wheats
And a pool hall where a rounder leered confidential like and said: "Lookin' for a quiet game?"

The loafer lagged along and asked,
"Do you make guitars here?
Do you make boxes the singing wood winds ask to sleep in?
Do you rig up strings the sining woods winds sift over and sing low?"
The answer: "We manfacture musical instruments here."
Here I saw churches with steeple like hatpins,
Undertaking rooms with sample coffins in the show window
And the signs everywhere satisfaction is guaranteed,
Shooting galleries where men kill imitation pigeons,
and there were doctors for the sick,
And lawyers for the people waiting in jail,
And a dog catcher and a superintendent of streets,
And telephones, water-works, trolley cars,
And newspapers with a splatter of telegrams from sister cities of Kalamazoo the round world over.
And the loafer lagging along said:
Kalamazoo, you ain't in a class by yourself;
I seen you before in a lot of places.
If you are nuts America is nuts.
And lagging along he said bitterly:
Before I came to Kalamazoo i was silent.
Now I am gabby, God help me, gabby.
Kalamazoo, both of us will do a fadeaway.
I will be carried out feet first
And time and the rain will chew you to dust
And the winds blow you away.
And an old, old mother will lay a green moss cover on my bones
And a green moss cover on the stones of your postoffice and city hall.
Best of all
I have loved your kiddies playing run-sheep-run
And cutting their initials on the ball ground fence
They knew everytime I fooled them who was fooled and how.
Best of all
I have loved the red gold smoke of your sunsets;
I have loved a moon with a ring around it
Floating over your public square;
I have loved the white dawn frost of early winter silver
And purple over your railroad tracks and lumber yards.
The wishing heart of you I loved, Kalamazoo.
I sang bye-lo, bye-lo to your dreams.
I sang Bye-lo to your hopes and songs.
I wished to God there were hound dogs of bronze and your public square, Hound dogs with bronze paws looking to a long horizon with a shivering silver angel, a creeping mystic what-is-it.

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