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Kore ijyou nani wo ushinaeba
Kokoro wa yurusareru no?
Dore hodou no itami naraba
Mou ichido kimi ni aeru?

One more time
Kisetsuyo utsuro wa naide
One more time
Fuzakeatta jikan yo

Kuichigau toki wa itsumo
Boku ga saki ni oretane
Wagamama na seikaku ga
Naosara itashiku saseta

One more chance
Kioku ni ashi wo torarete
One more chance
Tsugi no basho wo erabenai

Itsudemo sagashite iru yo
Dokka ni kimi no sugata wo
Mukai no hommu, rojiura no mado
Konna toko ni iru hazu mo nai no ni

Negai ga moshimo kanau nara
Ima sugu kimi no moto e
Dekinai koto wa, mou nani mo nai
Subete kakete dakishimete miseru yo

Sabishisa magirasu dake nara
Dare demo ii hazu na no ni
Hoshi ga ochisou na yoru dakara
Jibun wo itsuwarenai

One more time
Kisetsuyo utsuro wa nai de
One more time
Fuzakeatta jikan yo

Itsudemo sagashite iru yo
Dokka ni kimi no sugata wo
Kousaten demo, yume no naka demo
Konna toko ni iru hazu mo nai no ni

Kiseki wa moshimo okoru nara
Ima sugu kimi ni misetai
Atarashii asa, kore kara no boku
Ienakatta “suki” no iu kotoba mo

Natsu no omoide ga mawaru
Fui ni kieta kodou

Itsudemo sagashite iru yo
Dokka ni kimi no sugata wo
Akedatta no machi, Sakuragi chou de
Konna toko ni kuru hazu mo nai no ni

Negai ga moshimo kanau nara
Ima sugu kimi no moto e
Dekinai koto wa, mou nani mo nai
Subete kakete dakishimete miseru yo

Itsudemo sagashite iru yo
Dokka ni kimi no kakera wo
Tabiseki no mise, shinbun no sumi
Konna toko ni aru hazu mo nai no ni

Kiseki ga moshimo okoru nara
Ima sugu kimi ni misetai
Atarashii asa, kore kara no boku
Ienakatta “suki” to iu kotoba mo

Itsudemo sagashite shimau
Dokka ni kimi no egao wo
Kyuukou machi no, fumikiri atari
Konna toko ni iru hazu mo nai no ni

Inochi ga kurikaesu naraba
Nando mo kimi no moto e
Hoshii mono nado, mou nani mo nai

Kimi no hoka ni taisetsu na mono nado…


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Yesterday, I had a dream...
A dream of long ago...
In the dream, we were still thirteen years old....
And we were standing in a field covered in snow...
Where, in the dim light from distant houses...
Our footsteps were all that could be seen in the new fallen snow and because of that we both believed without any doubt that...
Someday, together, we would watch the cherry blossoms fall again...
Again...


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I am a twenty year old who dreams of the past. Always looking back, hopelessly believing that it will all come back.

I enjoy music as an escape from the morbid reality that surrounds my existence. I teach saxophone at a local high school.

I have, time and time over, had my soul ripped from me and so I devote my life not to people but to my studies. I am studying Chemistry and Spanish, preparing for graduate studies. I have published papers in the former and continue to do so to this day.

I began playing this game before the age requirement of thirteen. Me and my brother found solace in this game during the passing of our grandfather. Since, my brother and I have watched as Gaia evolved from a website that offered nothing more than a meeting place, to a website that allowed you to watch House on Haunted Hill (brother, I still fondly remember ordering pizza, having you teach me RuneScape, and watching that movie with you.) To a website that hosted its own game. To a website that offers little.

Although I desperately cling to my happiness long since passed, I recognize that what I desire to return is nothing more, now, than cherry blossoms, falling at five centimeters per second.

In a different history of Gaia Online, I once was able to accomplish something that had some semblance of prestige. Now, I look at these and recognize that my 'successes' were, as most are, lost in the depths of the internet. Never to be considered again.

Serving Gaia since Thu Jul 24, 2008 4:43 pm with 500 transactions, totaling 4,248,417g

Winning Fourth Place in the housing arenas week 6 of 2009
http://www.gaiaonline.com/arena/gaia/homes/winners/
I've destroyed my house sadly, but you can still go find me.



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Yesterday, I had a dream...
A dream of long ago...
In the dream, we were still thirteen years old....
And we were standing in a field covered in snow...
Where, in the dim light from distant houses...
Our footsteps were all that could be seen in the new fallen snow and because of that we both believed without any doubt that...
Someday, together, we would watch the cherry blossoms fall again...
Again...



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How much more will I have to lose
Before my heart is forgiven?
How many more pain will I have to suffer
To meet you once again?

One more time
Oh seasons, don't disappear
One more time
The time when we were fooling around

Whenever we argued
I would always give in first, right?
Your selfish nature made me love you even more

One more chance
The memories stopped my legs
One more chance
I cannot choose my next destination

I’m always searching
For your figure to appear somewhere
On the opposite platform, in the windows along the lane
Even though I know you couldn’t be at such a place

If my wish were to come true
I would be at your side right away
There would be nothing I couldn’t do
I would put everything on the risk and hold you tight, I'll show you

If I just wanted to distract my loneliness
Anybody would have been enough.
The stars seems like it will fall in the night
Which is why i can't lie to myself

One more time
Oh seasons, don't disappear
One more time
The time when we were fooling around

I’m always searching
For your figure to appear somewhere
Even when I'm crossing a street, even in the midst of my dreams
Even though I know you couldn’t be at such a place

If a miracle were to happen
I would want to show you immediately
A new morning, who I’ll be from now on
And the words i never said called: "I Love You"

The memories of summer are revolving
The throbbing which suddenly disappeared

I’m always searching
For your figure to appear somewhere
At dawn on the streets, at Sakuragi-cho
Even though I know you couldn’t be at such a place

If my wish were to come true
I would be at your side right away
There would be nothing I couldn’t do
I would put everything on the risk and hold you tight, I'll show you

I’m always searching,
For the fragments of you to appear somewhere
At a traveller’s store, in the corner of newspaper
Even though I know you couldn’t be at such a place

If a miracle were to happen
I would want to show you immediately
A new morning, who I’ll be from now on
And the words I never said called: “I Love You.”

I always end up looking
For your smile to appear somewhere
At the railroad crossing, waiting for the express to pass
Even though I know you couldn’t be at such a place

If our lives could be restarted,
No matter how many times it will be, I will go back to you
There’s nothing else that I want

Nothing else is more important than you…

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XexustheSilver

Report | 08/16/2014 7:42 pm

XexustheSilver

Thanks Ben ^_^ i'm a little dissappointed as well :/ but frankly i need to get away from my parents and younger siblings Fort Wayne for a while ^_^
-Shusuke girl14-

Report | 02/02/2014 4:01 pm

-Shusuke girl14-

i'm just hardly on here anymore is all. sorry
The_Amazing_ Elie_Rose

Report | 11/21/2013 3:59 pm

The_Amazing_ Elie_Rose

No razz
The_Amazing_ Elie_Rose

Report | 11/18/2013 3:13 pm

The_Amazing_ Elie_Rose

Get it together man :p
The_Amazing_ Elie_Rose

Report | 09/16/2013 8:33 pm

The_Amazing_ Elie_Rose

Xp
The_Amazing_ Elie_Rose

Report | 09/15/2013 11:36 am

The_Amazing_ Elie_Rose

You said you'd be online the next day but it's been three days sad rude
The_Amazing_ Elie_Rose

Report | 09/11/2013 7:23 pm

The_Amazing_ Elie_Rose

You flim flammer!!!!!
The_Amazing_ Elie_Rose

Report | 09/10/2013 7:10 pm

The_Amazing_ Elie_Rose

Same time?
The_Amazing_ Elie_Rose

Report | 09/10/2013 7:10 pm

The_Amazing_ Elie_Rose

Ok smile agreed
The_Amazing_ Elie_Rose

Report | 09/10/2013 5:29 pm

The_Amazing_ Elie_Rose

Hehehe :3

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