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- 02/20/2007 4:30 pm
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- Member Since
- 04/01/2005
- Location
- Massachusetts [ Which I dread ]
- Gender
- Male
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About
Name: Brendan, Don't repeat it.Age: 16.
Height: 5'7, And growing.
Weight: 138 lbs.
Appearance::
Hair: Black/Brown.
Eyes: Hazel, With varying hue.
Alright, well it has come to my attention that this profile of mine has needed re-working. So here it is.. The layout will also be changing soon; as well.
Over the past few years, since about eleven years old.. I have always felt that within me, I was more mature then those around me. That I was understanding, copeing, and needing the requirements of a full fledged adult. People judge me by the fact that I am a sixteen year old male, and that the life I live revolves around myself. That isn't true.. I have my own needs yes, but I don't believe that life revolves around me, or any of that. All I believe in.. Is living a happy life; and by happy I mean in the manner of which I want, I desire. I'm not a normal person.. Over the years.. Many people have come close to me, only to severely hurt me in the end.. I've had many relationships.. and each one has proven that I was only out to be used; and even online it is the same story. All I want, All I desire.. Is a life where I can be by myself with the person that loves me for me, and lets me live how I want.. be treated as I want.. And love to treat me that way. I've come to love serving the one I love, but as well as having my love dominate me in a loving way, Not a brutal slave way..
Now.. Online.. I.. can't help it when someone wants something of me, If they want me.. They can take me.. I won't argue.. But offline that is an entirely different story; I will not allow more then one person claim me. If you want to claim me, I am the only one you may have.. I have a severe jealousy issue.. and a mentality of a full fledged adult mixed with a selfish child. When I am claimed, I claim the claimer in the process.. But in return.. I strive to give her whatever she desires of me..
]People do not understand just how mature I really am mentally.. And because of that they do not understand just what it takes to truly make me happy.. I may play it off like I am happy to you, but in true retrospect.. Unless I say the words.. "I am happy, because of you.." then I am not as happy as I seem to be. I long for a relationship offline that truly means that I have no reason not to see the person I want to be with; no matter the distance.
I'm often labled as a half gender.. As in that I act like a woman at times because of my mood shifts. Nothing against women at all.. But they are known to have more noticeable mood swings then men are, and because of my bi-polar nature.. I have the same swings. Because of it, I often continuesly question things that are given to me.. If you say you love me, I ask why.. You give me a reason.. I still ask why.. I will never stop asking questions because I can never truly know anymore if you are telling me the truth or not; it's.. just how people have pushed me to become.
Overall, I'm a selfish, underserving person.. At least that is what I think of myself. You may think otherwise if you meet me, or talk to me.. And it may even be true.. Because I have given people all I have before.. but I do not believe that I deserve peoples company.. Or that of a happy life..
A note to all that I have talked to, or spoken to already...
I'm sorry.. Everyone of you that has my heart.. You do..
If you hear of me "Cheating" on you.. I am.. but it is not because you have done anything wrong, It is because.. I do not know whether you are telling me the truth or not. I'm sorry.. My feelings are true to you as I say them, Because I do not lie about how I feel.. especially if I tell you that I love you. I'm always in pain.. I feel as if my heart is ripping into two day by day.. My mind is coming to crumble.. I can't think anymore.. If you do not wish to know one that is always in search of someone new..
Then don't talk to me... But know.. You may lose.. A great friend.. and one that would give you the world..
I'm sorry.. Everyone of you that has my heart.. You do..
If you hear of me "Cheating" on you.. I am.. but it is not because you have done anything wrong, It is because.. I do not know whether you are telling me the truth or not. I'm sorry.. My feelings are true to you as I say them, Because I do not lie about how I feel.. especially if I tell you that I love you. I'm always in pain.. I feel as if my heart is ripping into two day by day.. My mind is coming to crumble.. I can't think anymore.. If you do not wish to know one that is always in search of someone new..
Then don't talk to me... But know.. You may lose.. A great friend.. and one that would give you the world..
Personality:
Paranoid: High
Schizoid: Very High
Schizotypal: Very High
Antisocial: High
Borderline: Moderate
Histrionic: Low
Narcissistic: Moderate
Avoidant: Moderate
Dependent: Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive: Moderate
Probability of Killing Someone: 58%
I'm also questing for the avatar above, Though, most of the items I already have. Here's a list of the items I need:
Winged Anklets
Devil Tail
Journal
~*Darkness Within*~
Um....Random stuff e.e
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