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Report | 09/06/2016 2:04 pm

Yeah, I tend to forget that also. The one that gets me most is the quotation mark followed by a closing parenthesis; I always forget to substitute two apostrophes the first time around and end up editing my posts as a result.

Anyway, hello. Nice to meetcha.

Report | 07/21/2016 11:14 am

Lake HyIia

birthday buddies ayeeeee exclaim

Report | 06/30/2016 11:54 am

Razumi Yazura

Thanks!

Report | 06/02/2016 9:34 pm

rigim

You're welcome

Report | 05/10/2016 1:55 pm

SteviieSkye

i like your avi. emotion_c8

Report | 12/27/2015 10:07 pm

Lied vom Tod

Don't you have a break from school stuff? D:

Good luck finding a good car. I feel like those are hard to come by in my family. Probably because my mom isn't willing to/can't cough up something like $20,000. There are just always problems with our cars. At least my boyfriend was able to afford a newer car from last year. As far as I know, there have been no problems with it yet. And I'm not really sure what I would be good at or interested in other than art as far as majors go. The last math class I took (college pre-calculus) proved to be very difficult for me. I took it because I thought it would be easy since I had taken more advanced classes before (but it had been a few years). I wanted a refresher and ended up learning stuff I had never even learned in high school. >__<

Yeah, I usually avoid pain, too. But I was extremely depressed at the time and was willing to try anything.

I hope they start getting along better then. And sorta yay for your mom getting a cold, I think? sweatdrop

We're moving into an apartment together because my boyfriend really wanted to. He can't stand his mom. I kinda feel like she makes excuses to yell at him. She cussed him out once because he left a light on in the stairwell. He wasn't even the last person to use the stairs; she was. She brought up his biological father another time and was talking about how abusive he was and expected my boyfriend to agree with her. He wanted to remain neutral but she accused him of taking his dad's side. According to my boyfriend, she was/is kinda abusive, too.

And I'm still sorry you had to go far away for school. : P

I understand that. My best friend from high school moved away either after she graduated or after her older sister graduated. I can't remember. But I haven't gotten to see her much since then. She's just a state away but that's still a long drive. I don't think anyone would be willing to take me. sweatdrop

Report | 12/19/2015 5:06 pm

Lied vom Tod

Okay. It just took you awhile to respond and I was worried. I've been told I worry about stuff needlessly a lot. >__< Good luck with your school stuff though!

I wouldn't say that. Normally better degrees means you qualify for higher paying jobs. I'd like a better degree, but I don't really think I'd be able to handle taking 2+ classes at a time for stuff that involves math anymore. And if I wanted a bachelor's degree, I doubt financial aid would cover all of my costs like it did at community college. And I don't really have the money to start paying off another student loan. sweatdrop

And yeah, setting myself on fire hurt A LOT. I regretted doing it right after I did it and put the fire out fairly quickly. I went to the hospital later that day when my mom found out because I had second degree burns on my leg.
And my brother has a tendency to deny that he says a lot of things. Meanwhile they're pretty much etched into my memory. If I do mention what he said to me those past times, he says that I dwell on the past too much. And he currently lives with me at our mom's house, so there's not much I can do about him for now. He hasn't been too much of a jerk lately though. But my boyfriend and I are planning on moving in together next month, so maybe I'll see him a little less then.

Yeah, he still lives with his parents. And I know my boyfriend used to live in a dorm for his first year of college but he was still going to a local university. Things didn't go very well for him then either. And I'm sorry you had to go far away for school. sad (I don't think I could have ever done that even if I did want to get away from family.)
And I really don't like the idea of him traveling quite that much for a living. I'd probably get really lonely because he's my best friend. (And my other friends are butts and don't even try to talk to me because they're all always "too busy" to hang out or talk.) And I'm not entirely sure how that would work with his sleep apnea. I know that's one of the reasons he's not able to be a pilot for the air force at least. confused

Report | 12/18/2015 9:17 am

Lied vom Tod

I worry that I've scared you off. If so, I'm sorry. OTL

Report | 12/13/2015 9:51 pm

Lied vom Tod

Wow, you sound really smart to be majoring in that sort of stuff. surprised When I first started out in college I was going to a university where I was majoring in physics and engineering, but I wanted to change to art because I really enjoyed making ceramic stuff a lot. And that university didn't have art as a major so I had to go to community college instead. And I don't know that I'd do well at a museum. I forgot almost everything I learned in my art history classes. sweatdrop

Technically I've had a few more than that, but not including the times I wasn't admitted, I've had seven. It's just that five happened recently and the other two were back in high school so I don't usually count those. I probably downplay a lot of the stuff I've done because of depression. I tried burning myself alive once because I was feeling really useless and then my brother (the one who majored in psychology) felt the need to tell me I was the "most useless and worthless person in the world." I tried overdosing another time because of him because he kept insulting me for calling out my mom's now ex-boyfriend for being a criminal (which he was and he's in prison now because of it). He called me useless and and worthless another time but I asked to go to the hospital before I did anything to hurt myself. The other two recent times I also went before I did anything to hurt myself. School just caused a lot of stress for me. Even when I was only going part-time. I tried really hard to go full-time at first, but I only managed to handle that for one semester after changing majors. And I wasn't able to handle it at all before changing majors. While I was majoring in physics and engineering I really only completed math classes. I've long forgotten how to do any of that math though. sweatdrop And yeah, I've seen a lot of part-time data entry stuff around my area, too. I would have applied for some of them, but a lot of them said they wanted people with experience with Excel. And I had barely any experience with that until my boyfriend showed me what to do for his parents' stuff. So I'm working on figuring stuff out with it slowly but surely.

I've been with my boyfriend for a little over three years. So almost as long as you've been with yours. And until kinda recently he was a security guard but he got a new job at an airport as a line service technician. The pay isn't super great but he says he likes it. He's really into planes and stuff. He hopes to eventually go back to college though. Before he was working he was going to a local university for history and political science, but unfortunately he wasn't doing so hot grade-wise. Probably because he couldn't handle the workload of going to school full-time either and definitely because his parents were a pain in his butt. They wouldn't just let him do his thing. They caused him so much stress just because they were the ones paying for his schooling and they had to have constant updates on his grades and they would go on his computer and look at his browser history and stuff and yell at him if they didn't see enough research related stuff. I know he would like to be in the air force and be a pilot, but I really don't want him to do anything like that because I worry about everything (like him getting hurt or killed). Something else he would like to be is a politician. So maybe one day he'll be able to do that.

And if you say so. sweatdrop

Report | 12/13/2015 8:39 pm

Lied vom Tod

I'm not super good about asking people personal questions. I more used to having other people ask me personal questions. xD
And I have an associate's degree but it's in art, which I now realize is completely useless for pretty much any other kind of job. And I don't really think I have what it takes to pursue a career in art...being shy and not confident and all...and I can't do what I feel like a lot of (or maybe even most) really good artists can do: draw from imagination. I used to try drawing from imagination but I gave up ages ago because I wasn't getting any better at it. I'm not too bad at observational drawing though. But I haven't really worked on any art since graduating. >__<;;
As for occupations, I not really employed at the moment. A full-time job would be ideal but I really don't think I could handle the stress so I'd prefer a part-time job if I can find one that won't stress me out. And I'm going to admit something I feel is kind of embarrassing: for income, I currently am on social security disability because of my depression. My mom kinda forced me to apply for it. They rejected me at first because I kinda probably tried to make my depression sound not so bad. >__< But I got an attorney and she was kinda like, "You've had five hospital visits because of this? You deserve that income!" I still don't really feel like I deserve it though. Anyway, another form of income I have is my unofficial job where I do data entry stuff for my boyfriend's parents. I'm hoping that if I do that for a while I can say I have experience with it and Microsoft Excel on my resume and maybe get an actual job doing that. Because right now my resume is fairly blank.

See? I ramble a lot. I just can't help myself sometimes. gonk

If you want to say anything about yourself, you're more than welcome to. I just don't know what kinds of questions to ask. sweatdrop

Report | 12/13/2015 8:09 pm

Lied vom Tod

Yeah, I know it can be difficult explaining to people who don't know what it's like to have depression. My 23 year old brother majored in psychology and he still doesn't seem to understand it. At least he's not trying to be a therapist or psychiatrist though. sweatdrop
Like I said for mine, I mostly just rambled. I rambled about some stuff that was annoying me at the time and some stuff that I just happen to like. 3nodding

Report | 12/13/2015 7:48 pm

Lied vom Tod

I feel like a lot of people I've talked to on Gaia are dealing with depression. And I'm actually surprised that you read all that. I feel like almost nobody reads that. But to be fair, I kinda typed all that because I was rambling. sweatdrop

Report | 12/13/2015 7:28 pm

Lied vom Tod

Oh. Hello. Cool how? sweatdrop

Report | 05/21/2015 2:43 pm

KeeRahRah

Yes! it servived. I am glad I tured it off when I did! I checked it lastnight. now I just have to finish your pic! I am debating about doing color, if you want color, it may take me longer.

Report | 05/18/2015 11:59 am

KeeRahRah

yeah, he loves to bring his cars in the tub, he brought his remote control car in there once and I didnt realize it. lol. oops. he cried so much from that. you would think he would have learned!

Report | 05/18/2015 9:54 am

KeeRahRah

Ok, so, on sunday when I started working on your pic, my son decided to come over to my comp and set his juice down to see what I was doing. he reached for my tablet and you guessed it, spilled his drink on my laptop. >.< I turned it off right away and set a fan on it, so when I get home today from work, I will try to turn in on and hope the the tech gods that that sticky apple juice doesnt ruin my computer. sorry for the delay. its a full body though!!!!