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EDIT 2/22/09: Thank you so much everyone! I have been offline for a little over 2 months and I come back to see everyone's wonderful comments and PM's. Thank you so much for everything you said, it really made me feel better. I realize that not everyone on Gaia is as elitist as I thought. I will still be on hiatus for the most part but you have made me feel much better about everything. Thank you everyone!

<3 Kanilea.

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Yesterday during my Quantum Mechanics final I finally decided something I thought I would never even consider—I am leaving Gaia. This was prompted by the message I received as I tried to correct a small mistake in a thread I had been stalking for about six months. The message was not typed to me in PM or even relayed at all verbally; it, instead, was stated boldly in a little grayed out bubble labeled “Post Reply.” I had been banned from a thread for making an honest mistake in an order form. I am a little embarrassed of what happened next, I cried. I fought back tears as I realized I wasn’t just banned from that thread, I was banned from ever thread that person had ever made—I could never participate in the Roleplay I had dreamed of. I know it seems silly, I am not a loner whose life is Gaia. I go to an Ivy League University for Chemical Engineering, I am in the wildest co-ed fraternity on campus, and I have two jobs waiting for me when I graduate. So you’re probably wondering why I care so much, actually you’re probably not reading. Despite everything I am still fighting a plaguing boredom that has been on the verge of consuming me for months. Gaia helped to relieve some of that pain and emptiness, but I after yesterday I can never really love Gaia the same way again. I was never an elitist, or purposely hurt someone. I am sure the person who looked at my humble mistake took three seconds to ban me, but it cut me a lot deeper than it would have hurt them to just ignore my post until I corrected it. I see now though that nobody really likes me on Gaia, my old friends have all but left and the new dynamic in the Gaia community is not compatible with my own. So after 1626 days of loving you Gaia, I have to leave…
Happy Holiday’s everyone,
Kanilea

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deidaralovesme

Report | 02/21/2009 7:17 am

deidaralovesme

I don't really know you either User Image

However I will say that the reason I joined Gaia was to relieve boredom and also make some friends which I have made some very good friends in my time here. Could you have tried to talk to the owner of the thread? Lots of people make little mistakes as you did but they talk it out with the owner and usually it works out fine. Though you sound like a smart person going to an Ivy League University so you probably tried this already? Or it has already been suggested. If you ever do come back to Gaia, I would love to be your friend everybody deserves some love here User Image I try to make lots of friends here and all my friends have been really helpful to me. I can tell them what's going on in real life and they help me solve my problems. I think everyone needs a support group like that. I just feel lucky to have such a big family and I would be happy if you wanted to join it but it seems like you may be gone already.
CXentaros

Report | 02/18/2009 4:54 pm

CXentaros

Wowzers. I don't even know you and I feel bad..*huggles* I hope you have better luck alleviating your boredom somewhere else then.
Lenty

Report | 02/14/2009 5:10 pm

Lenty

I'm sorry you're leaving. I have not been banned, but I've been yelled at countless times by 14 year olds who think they're so awesome because their mommy bought them a monthly collectible. But when it all came down to it, I realized that I didn't join Gaia to make friends, or to chat, or anything. . . I joined so I could play dress-up with my avatar. I'm sorry you've been banned, but I hope that's not your reason for leaving. If you honestly don't want to be part of Gaia anymore, then quit. We all come to a point in life where we don't want to belong to this kind of website anymore. But don't leave just because one bad thing happened.

I'm sorry for bugging you like this with a pointless rant. But I'm a weirdo who really does care when people quit Gaia.
Sweet Lady Aya

Report | 02/12/2009 7:29 pm

Sweet Lady Aya

Your Avatar is awesome

Make a new avatar to replace this one and transfer your stuff and gold over

There is no reason why you should leave just 'cause you made a small mistake.

Come back and make friends wiv me....

My friends are never on Gaia when I am....
x-tinora-x

Report | 02/12/2009 5:48 pm

x-tinora-x

hey there some kids my class that ifnore me but wloud like to be freinds with so do sit there say mmmm i want to stop going to this shcool i then i figured i did User Image but not because of theme User Image i simpley ignore theme and move on with my life also i know that if they ignore me we wloudent have made good freinds anyway
NBS Helios

Report | 02/12/2009 5:37 pm

NBS Helios

u don't know me but don't gou seem like areally nice person u shoudn't let that keep u down User Image
ArielsMisery

Report | 02/12/2009 7:47 am

ArielsMisery

Hi User Image I was following a thread and it lead me to another and I ended up clicking on your cause I saw that you were leaving. I only joined because it was the only way to keep in touch with a certain friend. Now that friend has left Gaia but I still hang out cause, like you, it fills a sort of boredom. I went to a great college too and its creepy how much we relate. You've probably already left but you seem like a very nice person and I just wanted to say, good luck in life and don't let the little things get you down User Image
CharlotteWaffles

Report | 02/12/2009 7:25 am

CharlotteWaffles

you cant leave gaia! just coz some little freak banned u from something and some of ur friends left, make new ones User Image i dont have nay friends on gaia n im pretty sure im not liked but i stay anyway. so please stay User Image.
mortimae

Report | 02/12/2009 5:58 am

mortimae

Reading through some of the comments posted here, and I have to say, I'm surprised by how many thoughtful people there are who genuinely care about your decision to leave. If anything, I hope it makes you feel better, because I know it's certainly cheering me up.
mortimae

Report | 02/12/2009 5:52 am

mortimae

I saw your post in Breezy's art contest and found your profile. Lovely piece of art in your sig..sorry to see you go. I guess I have some idea of what you said..I don't post much in the forums because of how blatantly mean or ridiculous some people can be at times. Hope you'll feel better and find another way to get rid of your boredom blues. Again, sorry to see you go, since you seem like a fairly nice person.

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