I gave them up for me. Giving my emotions to others is what got me hurt in the first place. From now one i live for myself. I find my purpose in my own wants and desires, instead of losing them in the existence of another person. I enjoy my life the way i want to, and im happy that way. If someone wants to come along for the ride, they can. But don't expect me to slow down for them when they want off.
Plus theres the lieing and cheating. But id rather not open so many old wounds in one day.
I loved you with all i had Joe, and for you that wasnt enough.
Im sorry..but we can never be as close as we once were.
The first time you hurt me Joe wasnt that you didnt get online. YOU dumped ME. With no warning or explanation. The a few months later you came back, told me you were sorry and that you loved me. And THEN you just stopped coming on gaia and started becoming MIA for weeks on end. Then months. After all of that, i just stopped waiting for you. There didn't seem to be any point anymore. The feelings we shared were long gone, and all that remained was the pain i felt while i was left alone. So i stop caring. I gave up what little love i still had for the man id once known.
What happened Joe, is that after being hurt by you and left alone by you over and over, I just learned to not let it bother me anymore. Ive accepted the fact that you are an acquaintance and thats all you can ever be to me . Why i see you i see you, and when i dont i dont. Nothing to get upset over or worry about.
Ive been fine Joe. Living my life, just the same old thing every day.
Oh and if you are talking to me now hoping to apologize for anything, please don't. I can honestly say that i feel no anger of resentment toward you whatsoever. In truth, the only thing i have felt toward you in a long time is apathy. Nothing more, nothing less. With that being said, it is nice to see you.