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Report | 06/13/2009 11:47 am

_but the clouds_

yeah. I understand this, but I had my life planned since I was little. My parents and everyone else can't seem to grasp that I'm a completely different person than who I used to be. Not that they knew who I was then. But they don't seem to realize any of this. The typical parental dream that, because I'm the smart one, I'm going to be something medical and amazing, when yeah, sure, I understand this. Doesn't help that I'm top ten percent. But, as much as I enjoy helping, I do that on my own time. I'm a writer, designer,and musician. I can't stand doing what they'd like me to do, if I can't use my imagination. And I really don't understand why I'm telling you this... I'm sorry.

Report | 06/13/2009 9:48 am

_but the clouds_

That's my intention. But on the path to waking up, I've more roadblocks than you can imagine. More than anything, self-discovery is key, but it's impossible to unlock when you've so many people trying to tell you who you are, and who you should be. I realize it's up to me, myself, but it's difficult to do that live up, as best I can, to expectaions I have set for me.

Report | 06/13/2009 7:00 am

_but the clouds_

But I'm tired of confusing it. Lately, I've been thriving to make my dreams a reality. And it's going well. It's in my nature to dream, but I'm not one to do the expected. My rock is going to crush me if I stay.

Report | 06/12/2009 9:40 pm

_but the clouds_

I suppose that may be it for me as well. My imagination feels so much more real than my life. I come out of my thoughts and it doesn't really feel like I'm actually there. Like, I'm conscious of my surroundings, but can't seem to feel a thing. Like, I'm not there, and we're all just someone elses dream. It's such an eerie feeling...

Report | 06/12/2009 9:27 pm

_but the clouds_

Yeah. The human mind is an amazing place to escape. It's the only place I have to myself anymore. And even better, I can go to my own little world whenever I feel the need to. But it saddens me that I cannot stay hidden or I would never be able to discern real from not.

Report | 06/12/2009 8:01 pm

_but the clouds_

You're right. But it's not really that I know about myself, rather that I know what I'm not. I know who people perceive me as, because thats what I intend. Reality is so distant. I'm not sure of whats there and whats not. I loose myself in my thought because I know whats there is in my control, most of the time.

Report | 06/12/2009 7:44 pm

RaWR iSH FiFi

Nope, not yet. Though some people are using it as an excuse to get out of school for the last week.

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