Its never too late to update on life

There are so many words out there to describe feelings and situations that I am afraid my words can not depict my meanings. So excuse my lack of colorful words and my bluntness in description.
I am a girl. I don't beleive myself beautiful or charming and everyone close to me knows that I am stubborn and have grammar issues. I have a problem with not smiling too often or laughing instead of retorting. I can promise that if you are honest with me I will be honest with you and have my respect.
Currently I am at a cross roads on finding out what I want to do with my life. I have a certain fear, and to simply put it, I have a fear of people, so this limits my options considerably. At the same time I love travel and change. I grew up moving every three years and I don't think I could live any other way.
My favorite place that I have lived so far was Tokyo, Japan. The food, people, and culture that engulfs oneself is life changing. Even though I lived there three years, unfortuantly I only learned limited Japanese, so I am unable to speak or write much, but I can write my hiragana and katakana, speak enough basics for directions, and spit enough curses in Japanese as in English.
I am a bit shy. Its not that I don't like people, I just feel akward around them. So I like new friends, people really fasinate me, but I find it difficult to approach people. So if you want a new friend, or just want someone to talk to, I won't ever judge.