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Report | 01/19/2010 8:54 pm

Edago

Okay im there. My username is Zaku Auki

Lol it was my first main roleplay characters name.. He really was a good character lol always running into trouble.. Eh anyway i added you.

Report | 01/19/2010 8:51 pm

Edago

OOH! Kered? But it will have numbers right? Tell me it anyway lol its just there are SOOOO many players i doubt you will be able to get the exact username.

Report | 01/19/2010 8:48 pm

Edago

OOH! Kered? But it will have numbers right? Tell me it anyway lol its just there are SOOOO many players i doubt you will be able to get the exact username.

Report | 01/19/2010 8:47 pm

Edago

Lol sounds true. Well anyway if your not comfortible about going to otherwebsites i understand but this is a partner website with runescape and like there are 111000 people online at a time playing that game so trust me its safe im like 108 on there.. Lol the acconts are free too FYI so no rush but if you ever do get around to it i would love to see how fast you can slaughter me at a battle of wits heheh

Report | 01/19/2010 8:43 pm

Edago

Heh the idea of playing chess with YOU is like playing chess with the grim reaper. You may call yourself a kid but your more mature then about 70% Of the adults ive met. And i think you know that but i wanna say that anyway lol. Hmmm I wonder if there are any sites we can play chess on.. Hmm have you heard of this site called Funorb.com? They have chess there and all you would need is accont and i would add you then we could play chess there! smile

Report | 01/19/2010 8:26 pm

Edago

Thanks Kered im sorry i just sorta had a moment of passion and my hands started typeing down how i felt so i thought it was worth expressing athough ill try my best not to swear anymore. You see i just sorta am on this guild on a game called EQ2 and there is this really AWESOME lady by the name of Holi on there and she swears all the time but she has listened to me and stuff and she like cares about me and eveything so ill just take note of that i just think i got a little used to cussing all the time online to my friends because in her guild her thing is she loves people for who they are and if they swear they swear. She does alot lol but shes funny shes hardly ever cruel she is just truthful and a tad blunt at times. I am not sure if you would get along with her or not lol

Report | 01/19/2010 8:03 pm

Edago

Whether you give up god, and keep your sexuality,
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Im NEVER Going to give up god.. Period. And i dont care whom this person is you talked to its NOT a choice.. I mean why dont you ask him or her if they are straight to try to become homosexual. It wont happen no matter how hard they try because they dont like the idea of it and therefore they cant truely love like that. No matter what threat,What kindness, Or what reasson. Thats a fact. Even the others that say they have changed i doubt its true. Its denial and if they have changed god bless them! But i cant like all the others that most christians just cant seem to understand when all they have to do is turn the tables and see things from our view points.. So im not keeping or removeing anything.. The best i can do is refuse to ever love at all and get myself fixed. Might as well go the catholic church while im at it and have them zap me a few times..

Im sorry if im hurting your or anoying you i just really looked at that text and i want to lay out how things are for you and whomever this person is to see. You can belive me or not but this is how it is for ME anyway and thats how it is.

And let me point out quickly im not the bad person here.. You see i just get that fealing im some sort of ungreatful little a*****e when people say god loves you yet then they turn around and say homos are demons. Hmph. Im not a bad person yet i am a sinner like everyone else.. I wont pretend to be perfect but i try SOOO hard to be.. I do everything i can to be better and more good not so much out of fear but perhaps defience. Im NOT evil and if i get sent to hell anyway then who decides that? Not me. God. I am not the demon.. I try and try and try... But if its not enough for him when my time is up.. Then so F-en be it.. I still respect him more then the devil and that crying little s**t lucifer that greedy power hungry a*****e.. He can change me and warp me all he wants.. Then when my (True nature) Is revealed then all of those people in heaven will be like.. Yeah thats why he got rejected.. We cant have him here! That nice guy act was a illsuon mhm god saw that! But its not in my heart i want to be good but how can i NOT have some anger and desire for revenge after burning in eternal fire?! Ugh.. Its just a pain and i wanted to get that out.. Im sorry if i upset you or anything but that just really anoyed me what i underlined.. Your basicly saying i cant be a gay christian right? That its me changeing my sexuality or i have to give up god.. And i simply refuse to give up both because like god is my father being a f** is part of me too and where that leads me is up to GOD to decide.. Im just going to try to be good in EVERY OTHER SINGLE WAY and have mercy and empathy for others that are judged. The jews the indians black slavery and the hitler thing.. I hate all of that. Im so sick of this fighting its been going on for centurys! Its always something like this Kered.. Always a certain group of people that people start pecking at.. *Sigh*

Report | 01/19/2010 5:24 pm

Edago

Thanks Kered. I feal sorta better now. And i cant find any words to describe how i feal about well just running into you. Lol im a fate person. I see most cups half empty but i think EVERYTHING has a reasson behind it.. Everything has strings behind it and there is more then just THE LINE that cannot be crossed. There are thosands of fine little lines to things as thin as spiderwebs that are everywhere for every circimstance for every soul's journey. Only a god could keep track of it all.. But for some reasson or another i try my best to spot and understand as many of them as humanly possible. I want to see and understand it all. If not alive then dead wherever my soul may go. Lol and i just am glad i ran into you along the way of my path even if i may never meet you ever in RL Its just amazeing how you get to know people with things like internet and words lol. Well anyway library computers are kicking me off soon so heh if i dont say anything else thats probly why.

Report | 01/19/2010 5:06 pm

Edago

Im sorry for troubleing you then. I know you dont want to think that way but if you belive that person then go ahead. I might too.. But let me just put a few facts down.

I am who i am and i feal how i feal. In a sense i dont want to change and i think.. I feal anyway theres a reasson for it.. I would like to think that. I know we are all sinners in one way or another so i think maby if i just be a really good person and try my best to help people and everything then maby ill get a little mercy when judgement comes.. But erm anyway.. God loves me or hates me. I am just following how i felt from as far back as i can remeber. If god loves me but expects me to go to one of those bible thumping catholic church to have porn flashed infront of me while they start tasering my private parts then thats not love and im not doing it! Period. Forgive the blunt crudeness but thats basicly what i hear they do in these god damn places where they *Fix* People with *Problems* Like mine that are not okay. Hmph!

Thats what makes others like me say god must hate me i hate christianity they are all assholes. Then christians say they are demons the end of the world is near! Sin is everywhere. Then im in the middle.. Trying to keep some peace.. Trying to relate with those on my side and say god still can be there for them he doesnt hate them and everyone is a sinner in one way or another and we are not doomed to eternal torment as long as they have faith. But i have yet to find others that will listen. I want to help them more then myself at this point and i dont want the truth from anyone else but god. Is he with me or has he given up on me? I dont care anymore since hes in no hurry to really give me proof i can hold onto i will continue to just try to be good and fight the chaos and hate of it all. Heaven or Hell my nature is to heal and pick up the mess the ignorant people have made and if i cant be saved i would atleast hope i can live with it someday and repair the damage i did to myself about three years ago. I feal so numb sometimes i can still laugh and smile when i forget it all but it always comes back. I just wanna be alone and just hide forever and im sick of it. I want to love and i want to step into the light and find my reasson for existence and fufill it! I just dont want to be told to do that i have to become straight in all onesty okay? *Sigh* Im going to post on that christian guild you invited me to soon.. Im just so tired i just rarely wanna think about it.. Its sorta like when your so hungry your not hungry anymore and you just sorta go on ignoreing it. Ya know?

Report | 01/19/2010 4:33 pm

Edago

I felt okay until you told me i wasn't really. I mean with myself. My parents judgement no but reguardless i always fear it. I wish you belived the sign but since you doubt it now i do and i feal forsaken again. Hmph shows what a impact people have on you.. All i can do is return to my heartless doubt and confusion again though. I just want the truth. The REAL truth. And i guess i need to find some sort of faith even though no others have it for me. Meh.

Report | 01/19/2010 4:08 pm

Edago

I was about to type terrible but i wont be that much of a drama person.. Just.. Always in the wrong place at the wrong time it seems.. Terrible luck. No one posting on my roleplays. Seriously my luck makes things happen that logicly shouldn't... Anyway.. That person you mailed about me. Wasn't a good response was it? Or still none?

Report | 01/18/2010 10:54 am

L O U V I E L

Hya! Love you layout

Report | 01/14/2010 1:32 pm

Osage Archer

Having people set up there own topics would be one way to go. And then maybe we could also have a drawing of sorts where one member gets featured for a certain amount of time. I have some other ideas but I
don't have the time at the moment to share them. I should be back on later though.

Report | 01/14/2010 1:22 pm

Osage Archer

We should probably start trying to decide how that will be set up.

Report | 01/14/2010 1:10 pm

Osage Archer

Thanks smile

Report | 01/14/2010 12:34 pm

Osage Archer

Cool

Report | 01/12/2010 4:15 pm

Shelbstr

Ya well at the people I date don't jump for joy and praise the lord when I dump them.

Report | 01/12/2010 10:40 am

Osage Archer

You can add me to your profile.

Report | 01/10/2010 11:11 pm

Osage Archer

Well I might be able to lend a hand.

Report | 01/09/2010 12:08 pm

Osage Archer

Hey! Thanks for the happy B-DAY wishes!! smile

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