I REMEMBER WHEN STUFF LIKE THAT WAS WHAT I HAD TO DEAL WITH. NOW EVERYTHING IS SO DIFFERENT. I MISS THOSE DAYS WHEN I WAS TRULY HAPPY.

Parents: Oh my god do you ever do anything right!?School: You'll never be smart enough to achieve anything in lifeMirror: They're never going to love you if you look like thatFriends: You're always so depressed, all you do is listen to musicMusic: Hey sweetheart, you okay? Don't worry, everything will be better soon. Just listen to me

my hobbies include trying not to sleep and disappointing everyone close to me

You: Im always here if you need anything, you can always talk to me.Me: You're not here for me at all. You're not here when I wake up, or when I go to sleep at night. Even when I call you or text you because I'm just so desperate for someone to talk to and at least pretend they care. You're not here when I feel so ******** worthless that I hurt myself. I can't always talk to you because I'll tell you my problems and then you'll begin to see how ******** up I really am, you won't ask me how I am anymore, even though you know i'm not okay. Because i'm a burden to you and everybody else around me. Because everybody gives up.

Cut myself on purpose: Don't even flinch.Get a paper cut: Jump out of my skin in pain and puts a band-aid on that s**t.

That's me. Nothing very special but still me.