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- 10/13/2008 8:10 pm
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- Member Since
- 01/28/2006
- Location
- up a rats a**
- Gender
- Female
- Birthday
- 08/10/1990
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X I WISH IT WOULD RAIN X
i wish it would rain
x
even though i know it wont heal the scars or the pain
x
it will only wash away the blood with which i am stained
x
i woke up with sweat covering my skin
x
it was that same dream again
x
the nightmares never end when i close my eyes
x
of the night my whole life turned into lies
x
i wish it would rain to wash away
x
all my memories of that day
x
the swords,the blood,the sounds of cracking bone
x
the night you left me all alone
x
i wish it would rain so you could see
x
exactly what you've done to me
x
i rub the scar along my cheek
x
the one you gave as a sign that i was weak
x
i wish it would rain though i can't escape
x
revenge,you,or my mistakes
X IF I COULD GO BACK X
if i could go back
x
to the night before
x
you left my life and walked out that door
x
maybe i'd still have something to live for
x
and i wouldn't be sitting here bleeding on the floor
x
if i could go back to before i changed
x
when i wasn't cold and consumed by rage
x
traped inside my rusted cage
x
if only i could turn back the page
x
i would still be laying next to you
x
just like i always do
x
i just wish it wasn't true
x
if only i could go back to before we where through
x
i want to go back to a time when i didn't have to sacrafice
x
before i took your advice
x
before i listened to all your lies
x
so now i have to pay the price
x
i know i'm the one who drove you off
x
this person i've become i just can't stop
x
i wish there was a way down from the top
x
without having to jump and make the drop
x
even now i try my best
x
to just forget you like all the rest
x
without you i can't manage to draw breath
x
so all my lungs can feel is death
x
if i could go back i would stop time
x
even if i know its not alright
x
i would pretend every thing is fine
x
to make your smile only mine
X BROKEN X
how long have i been broken?
x
or was i ever fixed?
x
did you ever love me?
x
if i was killed would i be missed?
x
if i jumped out the window
x
longing for the fall
x
would you even try to catch me at all?
x
if i took a knife and cut my wrists
x
would you stop the bleeding
x
or let it persist?
x
if i where to die
x
from this curse that i bare
x
would you show any sign that you even cared?
x
the light in my eyes has become so worn
x
how long has it beeen sinced i haven't been torn
x
how long have i been broken
~PRETENDING~
again i'll go to sleep tonight and pretend that you care
x
but in the morning i know you won't be there
x
i try to pretend i'm holding up
x
try to pretend i'm strong enough
x
to take all the blows when i get hit
x
just this once i wish you'd miss
x
i try to pretend i'm not afraid
x
like i'm not the one who is gonna cave
x
but i know i'll be the first to break
x
to have to live with my mistake
x
i try to pretend i can live without
x
all those lies you talk about
x
but every day i'm just pretending
x
there realy is a happy ending
~YOUR EYES~
your eyes like blood that pierce through the night
x
that used to make everything alright
x
your eyes that see into my soul
x
that reach in and rip out all that makes me whole
x
your eyes that fill me with such fear
x
that took away all i held dear
x
your eyes that seee into my mind
x
through all the lies i hide behind
x
your eyes that causen all my pain
x
our eyes that are the same
x
someday soon our eyes will meet
x
and i won't be the one to bleed
~MY BLOODY DECEMBER~
i could feel today was different from the rest
x
a struggled feeling inside my chest
x
told me i would regret
x
when i returned to my address
x
it seams to get worse with each day
x
the hatred
x
the hurt
x
the running away
x
i walked in the door
x
he screams and shouts
x
she is lying on the floor
x
like i had any doubts
x
this time he has a gun
x
pointed to her head
x
in her ear he whispers lies
x
tells her she should be dead
x
and like every time
x
i cover my ears
x
i head up stairs
x
out of my fears
x
though she is on the ground covered in tears
x
as i reach the top step
x
i hear the sound of a shot
x
i ran back down
x
wishing i had not
x
i stare at the body that looks like it's cold
x
as tears fill my eyes
x
i stare at the hand i used to hold
x
atatched to a body no longer alive
x
i give him a lokk of pure rage
x
i take out my knife and stab it into his ribcage
x
i'm stuck in a trance
x
of screaming and rants
x
finally i lose all reason
x
i'm punching ans swearing like mad
x
until i pull out the gun
x
and shoot my dad
x
the dreams still haunt me
x
but it's hard not to remember
x
the things i could see
x
on my bloody december
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