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Incubus - Pardon Me


Pardon me while I burst
Pardon me while I burst

A decade ago, I never thought I would be.
At twenty three on the verge of spontaneous combustion.
Woe-is-me
But I guess that it goes with the territory.
Anonymous landscape of never-ending calamity.
I need you to hear. I need you to see.
That I have had all I can take
And exploding seems like a definite possibility
To me

So Pardon me while I burst into flames.
I've had enough of the world, and its people's mindless games

So Pardon me while I burn, and rise above the flame
Pardon me, pardon me. I'll never be the same.

Not two days ago I was having a look in a book
And I saw a picture of a guy fried up above his knees
I said I can relate
Cause lately I've been thinking of combustication as a welcomed
vacation from.
The burdens of the planet earth, like gravity, hypocrisy, and
the perils of being in 3-D
And thinking so much differently.

So Pardon me while I burst into flames.
I've had enough of the world, and it's people's mindless games

Pardon me while I burn, and rise above the flame
Pardon me, pardon me. I'll never be the same.
Never be the same...yeah.
Pardon me while I burst into flames.
Pardon me, pardon me, pardon me.
So pardon me while I burst into flames.
I've had enough of the world, and it's people's mindless games

So pardon me while I burn, and rise above the flame
Pardon me, pardon me. I'll never be the same.
Pardon me, never be the same. Yeah

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I don't know about you, but I think that that song is so easy to relate to at times. You know what I'm talking about- when your whole entire life seems to have taken a turn for the worst, and you feel like you're driving straight off of a cliff to your doom.

I don't feel that way currently, but trust me, it comes and goes quite a bit. Sometimes you just start thinking to yourself, "What if this happened differently? How would my life be going right now?" But you can't think that way. There are no "what ifs" anymore... there just is.

Everyone in the house has been getting sick. And I mean everyone. It started with Josh and his girlfriend, Sarah. They were throwing up all through the night. That then went to Thackery, followed by Zach and Regan, then Mom. Ryan was next in line, and Bill was throwing up just two days later. I started to get a little sick yesterday, but, thankfully, it didn't develop into anything worse than a slight fever and stomach ache that I managed to sleep off. Hopefully it won't hit me again.

My dad hasn't gotten sick... well, not in that way. He's still dealing with the pains of diabetes and his lack of care for himself. He was hooked up to a catheter for a couple of days... he said that his kidneys were killing him. I don't know how much longer he has left in him... we'll just have to take things a day at a time and see what happens, I suppose.