I am extremely opened minded. I'm up for trying new things, but dont expect me to come up with them on my own. I have a million aquantences, but not alot of close friends. Sometimes I'm okay with that, and sometimes I'm not. There are alot of things that I strongly believe in; but I am very against religion. Athiests make me sad. How can you not believe in anything at all? I want nothing more than to be able to drive. When I can, its all I'll do. I'll be on the move at all times. Anywhere but home. I've got my own drama. I dont need anyone elses. First impressions mean alot to me. If you get me mad enough, really enraged, its not that unlikely that I'll just give up and cry. I do not have alot of motive. When I'm nervous, you'll know it. I cant sit still. I like getting butterflies. When I feel like we're moving to fast; getting too personal; I'll crack a few lame jokes to change the subject. I hate being put on the spot. But I hate being ignored even more. I sometimes chew on my lips so much they bleed. Its a nervous habbit. I get nervous alot. Everything makes me anxious. I make big deals out of nothing. I've been known to cut myself off from the world for months. I've been called alot of bad things, and people often judge me before they even try to get to know me. I can be shy. I can be the opposite of shy. It really depends on my mood. I can be the nicest person you'll ever meet; I can be a b***h from hell. I'm pretty much a normal girl. I want what every girl wants. To be wanted. I've got a lot of self-confidence issues. I'm the most egotistical person you'll ever meet. I like to do things that make people shocked. I hate being stereotyped. I like to talk about myself. Every once in a while, I get an uncontrolable craving for pancakes. But otherwise I dont like them much. Sometimes I feel like I'm disapearing. I dont always know who I am, or what I like, or who my real friends are. I want to be a surgeon when I'm older. I'm afraid of blood. I've got the bad habit of posting song lyrics 24/7. Dont believe me when I tell you how I feel. I can be articulate. I often stumble on my words. The sound of car alarms soothe me. I'm slowly finding myself, and begining to exist peacefully. I like to read, write, contemplate the meaning of life, and have long, intense conversations. There are few things that make me insanely happy. Lying back in the grass to watch the first stars appear in the sky is the closest thing to religion I know.
ROFL Cat · Wed Feb 28, 2007 @ 05:36am · 5 Comments |