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There's not much to say although there probably is. I dunno... I'm on vacation for three weeks which is cool and it turns out that Du's gonna be home the whole time so yeah that's nice. I've been going on facebook a lot, although the whole concept is lame, mine is complete BS, so whatever. I get to talk to Lindsey this way and have fun with a bunch of school friends. Sean gave me the flowers which is really nice of him. Yeah, I don't really know what else to say. No major emotional crisis or anything like that, so I'm good. Sometimes I get frustrated, or just want to curl up and be left alone and all, but who doesn't really? I have really good friends although I miss Terra and Emily and Heather and I should probably call Terra and Heather. Oh! I had a dream about her last night! Heather that is. I went by her house and said hello. Emily is on vacation. She and Freshman Matt are going out now, isn't that sweet? Couples around me are pulling together and falling apart, off and on, so that's kind of confusing. David and I are good, very good. So are Du and Ben. High school is a very confusing time of life, but right now it's pretty good. Me and Matt had a long talk on Friday, and even though we didn't really say anything positive but we both feel a lot better and our problems are going away. Mine so much that I wonder why I ever thought I had any. It's just a matter of getting over stuff that happened a long time ago. Ancient history, if you know what I mean. I guess we should both move on really. When we talked we were both still hurting a lot, but the more I've thought about the more I've realized how stupid I'm being. I mean, everything that happened was MONTHS ago, and everything is perfect now, so why wallow in what happened? I mean, up until now I was still figuring stuff out and everything, but now I know it all and it's time to move on. I wonder why I even cared so much to begin with. Well I guess it doesn't help that last week a ton of painful memories were brought up and thrown in my face but it doesn't matter any more. Matt and I also talked about people we missed. I miss a lot of people and the sad thing is, I think my friendship with one of the people is over. I mean, it's not a shock, we haven't been friends since seventh grade, but I've been seeing him around lately, and we used to be so close, and now I know that we probably won't ever be close friends again. No! I can't think that! Must use the Secret! We WILL be friends again! We WILL!