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(this poem modelled after Eleanor Waits work "Ellie: An Inventory of Being" wink
I am what the people call 'Dot'. I am Dorothy, Dotty, Do. I answer to all of them.
Age is just an insignificant number to me. I will still and always be the immature 3 year old at heart.
I stand between 5'5 and 5'6. To my family I am quite tall, but to the world I feel anything but tall. I feel just right being this height.
I always think about my appearance, to be honest it's the first thing I notice about everyone. I am very shallow when I say this. I always have to look my best.
There was a time where I adored going to school. I feel it's more like a chore, minus the money. I go there only to socialize.
I would like to make something out of my self someday, that is if I find that something. I doubt it would ever happen.
I believe that my personality is based off of everyone elses personality. They all love me because I am like them. I make myself to become like that. I would want to fit in for once. That classifies me as normal?
I live to care for the lively. I care to live lively.
I eat whatever is presented to me. I have to be greatful for what I eat. No matter what it is, I cannot complain when there are the less fortunate
I am one for loving the water. I am also one who greatly fears it. In the end, it will be the death of me.
I am a hardcore hypocrite. I say what I shouldn't and do what I couldn't.
I fancy pies, people and poppies.
I am not one for book, but I do enjoy to indulge myself in a good celebrety gossip magazine.
People should stop thinking that their life is messed. Face it, it's the greatest thing that will ever be. I enjoy mine, and so enjoy yours.
My goal is to love and be loved. Love will be the answer to life's mystery. I take it to heart.
I will most likely love all equally. Or try to anyway.
I see myself as a pestimistic person that sugarcoats reality. Don't tell anyone.
I wish I had my own firm opinion about everything. Sad to say, I rely on everyone else to finalize my decision. I am nothing by myself.
I would love to write what's on my mind. My mind would love to think what's on others minds.
I would become a good counseilor. A person who is paid to care.
I think life is over rated.
I do have a thing for spending money. What teenager doesn't. Contrary to popular belief, I can control myself with money.
I do spend too much at thrift stores.
I cannot stand making decisions. I say life is better off being spontaneous
I love watching politics. However, I do not wish to take part in it. For the sake of being wrong and being brought down. If anyone asks, I am a communist.
My self-esteme is on a constant rollercoaster. I wish it would be stable. Same goes for my mood.
I try too much to be different. Not that it's a problem or anything.
Make up allows me to hide my imperfectness. It brings out my true 'features'. I can become who I want with make-up on I cannot live without mascara.
I tend to over analyze the small situations And underestimate the larger ones
I can instantly throw my heart out at anything, anyone if I really wanted to. This includes many stuffed animals.
I tend to 'misplace' many valuables. Most of which aren't even mine.
My consious is always on my back.
Some may say I am a cronic liar. I like to mention that I just happen to bend the truth. One cannot blame me. It's heridetary.
I am up for new things. No matter what will happen.
I will most likely become the one with the problems. Through out my life time I could say I've done all. I will die when I'm young because of this.
I've never done well at life. Constantly I fail at life. Life are for those who deserve it
I've never broken a bone, got a cavity, sprainted something or got stitches. This is God's way in saying that sometihng big will happen.
I do believe in God. Because I need to believe in something. I need that support.
I can always adore the days just after a big storm. Just being there, makes me feel like I've accomplished something
I can tolerate pain. That may be my greatest strength, I cannot cry in public To me, that's a sign of weakness. That I am truly human.
I'd like to say everyone has changed me. It's true.
I can function without a boyfriend. But I do need the love and comforts from a guy.
Once you've had a taste of love, you can never go back.
I am certain that life would be easier for <i>me</i> if I were smarter.
I can put my mind towards anything if I try. Trying is for the weak.
Guys are so much easier to hang out with. Single mindedness and sudden actions is what the world needs. I need it atleast.
I am into the mainstream music.
I do listen to what others says. I cherish their opinion.
I throw the word idol or hero like a hot potatoe. But I do mean it.
The world needs a shoulder to cry on. That shoulder is me.
I would pick my brothers brain any day
My parents might not recognise how much I love them. Despite all the torment and back talking to throw at them.
Fun underwear is what makes me happy. Yes I am talking about lingerie.
I would love to travel the world. But I am afraid of the world.
I have no idea about my future. I am probably going to stay in Ottawa as much as I say that I hate it here.
Everyone needs to stop wondering about their lives.
I truly honestly believe that a smile can make someone's day.
I am thankful for everything that is foolishly tossed towards me.
I mean everything I say.
Call me what you want, I will forever be Dot.
meepit · Sun Feb 06, 2005 @ 05:28pm · 1 Comments |
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