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Right now i feel like evry ounce of my body has been eaten alive.My friend is going out with my ex that she knows that i still love. Well that just made me hit riock bottem. I started again(anyone who knows me knows what i'm talking about) The razor feels like my new best friend. Everything from my home life to this just put so much stress that i feel like this world is tighting around my kneck and i'm begging it to hold tighter. I can pretend all i want..........but i'm not who i was and i never will be. The blade makes it go away.I want every ounce of pain so i can feel it. I deserve this. my new friend will kill me dark buffy · Fri Oct 20, 2006 @ 03:17am · 6 Comments


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Fri Oct 20, 2006 @ 05:12am

That's not good! Well, Actually. It's really ********' scary!

GothVII
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Fri Oct 20, 2006 @ 05:27pm

what the???

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Fri Oct 20, 2006 @ 07:56pm

hey whats up? yeah we all have sterss too i would LOVE TO JUST DIE instead of living now im my life alll the things i want i know now i'll never get to be what i really want to be even if its silly.... i dont like that your friend is going out with a guy you still like *shakes head* that just not a friend! i dont cut myself though because i get sick when i ssee blood... all i do is listen to music and sing to it (any kind) it do it until i feel better just putting my heart into it... but sometimes i hate myself so much that i hit myself i either hit myself with i watter bottle or brush or i'll bang my head against the wall or the stairs... and yes i did at one time want to cut myself bt i thought i had friends but they dont want me either ...so i keep my pain hiden in myself...thats what will kill me .... sweatdrop i worte too much i might not even make sense..... but anyway if you want some one to talk to im here ^-^ 3nodding

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Sat Oct 21, 2006 @ 03:40pm

DONT YOU EVER SAY THAT DAPHNEY!!!!! YOU DONT NEED TO DO THAT!! LIKE I TOLD YOU... IF YOU EVER NEED SOMEPLACE TO STAY GET YOUR a** OVER HERE!!!!! you know i care about you and i dont want anything bad to happen to you. i love you and i hope you dont do anything stupid. you know what choice you have to make. if you still love him.... tell him. if you still want to be with him.... you know he'll break up with her for you. he's madly in love with you. if you want i could tell him for you. i honestly dont want you to start doing this again. yesturday if we werent at the teen center... i would have kicked the crap out of you for doing this! make the choice you think is right. if you dont... you could regret it. just know that i'm always here for you no matter what. i'll always love you and you need to remember that. this is bullshit and you know it. tell him you love him. tell him you care. yes we all know that he's a little clingy, but you love him. you have to do what you want. i'm not making this choice for you. i do hope you're ok (for the most part *wink wink*) by the next time i see you. i know that you dont think you'll ever be able to go out with anyboay ever again but hey, tomorrow is another day and maybe it'll be better and who knows, you might even find mister right^^. i'm just trying to get a laugh out of you. so laugh damn it. LAUGH!!!!!! -pokes you till you laugh- i love you Daphney and just remember that i'm always here for you. i know you think the blade will make the pain go away but it wont and you know it wont. i know for a fact that it doesnt help because i've been doing it since i was like 5.... -lookies around the room like a ninja- i love you Daphney. do the right thing.

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Sat Oct 21, 2006 @ 07:36pm

Okay Daph I know it doesn't make it feel any better, and I know words are just words, but to do this over a GUY is just too much, I know you love him, and I know he loves you but still! to damage yourself because of this is not the best choice.... okay... so I should shut up and give some real advice now.

Cutting yourself is a major problem which will continue until its too late, either getting deeper each cut, or more cuts overall, it will end up in a bad place and your beyond that. Your the nicest, funniest, most upbeat person I know and your one of the key figures in this s**t bowl called life that makes ME less depressive. So for the sake of yourself, me, your friends and Him... attempt to pull yourself out of it because we all love you and we'll all take care of you... that sounded a bit creepy didn't it?.... take care of..... anyway!

If you EVER need anything of me, no matter what and without limit, tell me and you'll get it. Your also one of the most liked people I know ^^, more so then some. Anyway!.... love you Daphney and again if you ever need anything from me you got it without question.

PS. For cutting you may want to hold ice, and only ice, to your skin to chill it out instead of cutting or burning, also don't apply salt first as it is bad for you also.

PS/2. Taking a walk in the cold may help, or a cold shower... erm.. tea... tea helps me and writing your thoughts out like on here, or on wordpad if you perfer more private.

PS/3. My home address is 211. W. Harris, apartment A. Its across from lincoin or whatever elementry School, my windows in the alley. Feel free to drop by anytime, day or night.

Love you so much Daphney,
With love,
The Stalker of Eureka,
Salem M.

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Sun Oct 22, 2006 @ 02:15am

my friend did the same thing 2 me went out wit my ex dat i still loved.

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