never used this space much but recently im wondering if i should pick it up...
i want to use this account for more than just playing dress up, but im not really much of a forum gal. not that theres all that many people these days anyways.....
i was never good at keeping a diary or journal or agenda so i dont even know if i'll post again.... but i thinnk it might be nice to have something......
that said who knows if this site will hang in there.... should i maybe make a real blog? or use tumblr for it.... but i kinda like that this space is a little underground....im not exactly hidden or private but its unlikely anyone will read these other than me....
right now im in my room listening to last week tonight. my hair is done up in the tiktok heatless curls method. celeste says my hair is too straight for it to work and maybe she's right, but i wasn't expecting much from it anyway so we'll see. she's at the hospital with her mom. she's had a splitting headache for a few days now and her mom wanted to get her checked out bc yknow shes got that history of seizures going for her. i think shes just stressed out. i hope she brings back some food.
actually i shouldnt even be goofing off on gaia or watching tv, im super behind on my coursework. well, maybe not that behind. but i really did want to get those optional readings under my belt. i dont know how im gonna get by. i dont know how i got this far sometimes.
i feel like ive deteriorated mentally like crazy... i used to be better at this i think...the meds help but with the aderall shortage im just running on my antidepressant which im starting to think...might not be enough.....last time i think the aderall was doing the heavy lifting. i definitely feel better than all those months i was off the zoloft but i still feel down...im tired all the time and nothing is all that interesting...hopefully i can get my aderall soon. hopefully it helps.
im so stressed. school. money. i need to keep an eye on my dad. i need to read. i need to get a health plan. im sick. im tired. my friends are fighting.
this is kind of nice. but i dont know if i can keep it up. i used to write similarly on tumblr. but its tough to keep up. it starts to feel like a chore.
speaking of chores, i should at least finish my late homework today since i already wasted the time i shouldve spent doing the assigned readings.
see you when i see you.
 Oppa is Trash · Mon Feb 12, 2024 @ 11:00pm · 0 Comments |
