so like yeah, i've gotta get things all set up before i leave and i really don't feel like it. my mind is circling and i'm pacing around the house screaming 'I hate ppl' well don't get me wrong, like 90% of the contestants are like totally sweet, but like right now...omg right now...
kenji's calling me at like 10pm at night, and its not that its that late, but he talks till like forever. we talk maybe 15 minutes about masq and then the other 6 hours its about his love life and how he likes to destroy things. everything is truely good cop bad cop and he loves being bad cop. sure that makes things easier for me, i have someone to point to when things go crazy and he'll like totally back me up. but sometimes maybe i would like to stand up and give the a** whoopin 'NO'. Sure I'm afraid that those contestants wont like me anymore, but maybe I just have to take that leap. whatever doesnt kill me makes me stronger right? .... lets just hope that it doesn't kill me.
anyway, I have to go pick up a tablet tomorrow afternoon, so I have to be down there by tomorrow. and my beautification appt is on thursday morning. waxing and nails, no pedi since i'm wearing either boots or close toed heels this weekend. omg its this weekend... what the hell... this is insane...
I can't believe that he used to do this by himself! this is so much work! course i guess he only had work to deal with, i've got school and i used to have 2 jobs. had to quit so i could make time for AX stuff. i only started the avie art shop so i could relax and have a reason to relax. There's so much work to do that if i don't unwind with something (that i feel like I have to do) i wont relax.
All my costumes for AX are old this year. How sad. Next year Laura will help me and (hopefully) we can start earlier. I was bugging Kenji on starting it back in Feb, but he said to wait. Now that I kno that he totally is enamored by Laura I can stick it by her and she can change his mind. Me manipulative? ...yes.
I think I might just refresh myself with a nice shower and hopefully the waterheater decides to work. xp
paraparaprincess · Tue Jun 27, 2006 @ 03:05am · 1 Comments |