-frowns and sighs sitting down and typing-

REAL LIFE:

1. Well I got the new pillows and a new outfit from my rents for my birthday. You want to know why I did't get my stero....b/c I was born in december and its the x-mas season and that cost alot of money so therefore I get ******** shafted in the birthday department. -glares at her rents- I mean I NEEDED the new pillows mine where not helping my back being as flat as they were. And the outfit is because I gained weight gonk and needed pants that could fit and the top I will admit is nice but still. -sighs gently- I know I shouldn't b***h at least I got something but once more it was things I needed instead of something I actually wanted.

2. My sister says she is going to take me out drinking this Saturday once she was done work and such. Like I am guessing between 6-10pm we will leave and then I have to spend the night at her house. She has plans to get me drunk but I know I can hold my liquor so I'm not worried. I have no intention on getting drunk. If I do then whoops I am sorry that I couldn't keep my word. But I really don't plan on it....my sister will get drunk before me so I'm not too worried. Um I'll be online early for my birthday so you want to wish me a good one do it friday or early saturday. Unless of course my sister backs out and my plans for my birthday don't happen which wouldn't shock me.

3. -sighs gently- Pushy Tom came back. I got rid of him by telling him that I was dating my ex Brian. And no I am not dating him I just told Tom that >< Well he goes off on how his ex killed herself but then went into how he had sex with her last week and now he won't have sex again because he doesn't want to be a dad or get an STD. Only reason he said this was that "his ex was raped by her HIV infected father" but this isn't important anyways back to the topic at hand...well hes like I won't bother you again and I go thanks bye...and he goes NO DON'T CALL THE COPS ON ME. I swear to god this boy is like ******** nuts or something >< well after an hour and 1/2 of convincing him I wasn't going to call the cops and he still doesn't believe I won't but I don't even know what I can say to the cops to be worth calling them >< Being pushy doesn't mean I can put him in jail. Well hes like imma tell your rents which will get my a** beat but only certain people know why this is. sorry its not something I want to tell everyone. If you don't know don't ask unless you know your really special to me. But anyways then he finally gets off that topic and goes I love you..and im like wtf....so he tells me how he cried while he was around me and I'm like when did this happen. I wasn't looking he says...and he keeps saying he loves me and im pretty even after I tell him I don't love him that I love Brian and hes like does my love mean nothing. and im like um.... and then hes like can i come over again plz and I'm like NO WAY....and he didn't get the hint kept begging but I stuck to my word and was like NO NO NO NO...then hes like MARRY ME? and im like wtf this guy barely knows me and hes asking me this crap and i was like NO I WONT MARRY YOU >< and now he wants to call on monday and im like dammit >< WHY CANT HE JUST LEAVE ME ALONE

4. ^_^ This is good stuff....my mom set up the x-mas houses we own in the window and omg they look great and I own like four of them that I get to take with me when I move out. I love christmas its one of my fav holidays and we get a REAL tree because of my niece and its just nice and such....-smiles gently-

5. I have therapy on thursday and I am glad to say once more my nightmares have gone down a bit. ^_^ This is a good thing but it could be because I'm having trouble sleeping like getting my mind to shut down and let me sleep.

6. Me and Brian are talking more and more like everyday and it makes me very happy. He means a great deal to me still being my first love and all. His voice relaxes me and calms me down and he always listens to me even when im rambling on and on about the same thing. Brian is a great guy even if he doesn't like me online all the time. -laughs- he doesn't forbid it he just won't talk to me while I am online.

7. Jeph...well all I can say there is I don't know except there is tension between me and him. Something is up with him but I'll let him tell me when he is ready.

8. I miss talking to Lexie all the time. She is a great friend and almost my twin. I love her very much and hope everything is well with her. I'll let her find me when she wants to talk. I don't want to be a burden.

9. Rue you just kick arse and have been a great friend to me thank you. Thank you to all my friends who have been there recently for me.

um think that is all for real life.....and I'll post about gaia tomorrow I think