105
1 cup hot choco tofu broccoli stir fry 1/2 melon tofu broccoli stir fry sunflower seeds 1 cup hot choco
so its a very very low 105. barely 105. which means i want to see 103 by tomorrow morning! my event is sometime this week. probably later in the week so i have to work super hard for at least 3 days. that is the most time i think she will give me. i can at least get to 102 i think but i'd like to do even better. come on! i can do this!! my throat hurts but not as badly today. i'm just going to stay busy with chores and cooking. should i give myself some sort of reward for making it through the first day? maybe a hot bath? that would be nice. ok a hot bath tomorrow when i succeed.
i'm tired of saying this same old thing every day. 'i'll do better, i'll try harder'. ughhh. i want to say something different tomorrow. i want to say that 'i did it! i'm so proud! now i can achieve all my goals.' i'm just so sick of being a failure for almost 2 years now. enough is enough. i'm supposed to be in a better place than before. i'm supposed to be stronger and more successful. so why cant i do this one simple thing?
cat_ninja
inskin · Mon Oct 28, 2013 @ 01:49pm · 0 Comments |