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I can kind of just feel my emotions both dulling, and yet biting deeper into me with each day. I act nonchalant, cool, and normal around my friends, certain words and lashings don't truly phase me anymore but to respond is to keep the mask looking real.
And yet other things feel like they stab right into my mind, gnaw at every action and thought I make and receive. I am alone. I'm that guy that's told 'a girl would be so lucky to have you,' but always from a distance, or always too late, just because I throw myself into the problems of others. And yet I'm to eternally be second best, or to be used. And it hurts so very much.
I've told myself, 'This is normal for you now, just the same rigmarole. It doesn't hurt, you like to be alone.'
It makes sitting in my house alone just a little less unbearable..
 Trerandrim · Thu Feb 07, 2013 @ 12:55pm · 0 Comments |
