So I'll make this quick
I ran away in the middle of the evening into the rain
with my black purse and cell phone against my heart
I was running toward my luvs house for a chance at a hug...maybe one tight
I ran a little and walked some more
so much my feet are today, extremely sore
he wants home so I stood frozen at a bus stop not sure were to leave to
so I walked into a fancy looking neighborhood behind an old catholic church
everything was pure and everyone was happy
real happiness too...nothing fake and black with darkness inside
fathers reading and writing besides a candlelight while their family sleeps
family's eating together across from a fancy looking window
dogs running around and gates covered in protection
built by their love for one another no doubt
It made me really happy
I could feel their happiness and purity
When I get happy I just wanna commit suicide
seeing them gave me the strength to finally kill myself
in which I will...in 2 weeks from tomorrow
I've decided to hang myself in the local park late at night
Because I have seen what completes my life
and I have reached as far as I will be able to go
I shall never get closer to feeling happy then I did that day
standing cold in the rain with my umbrella in my hand
I find more reason to pray..for I will be joining the angels in Heaven soon
this feel of awaiting death makes me very happy
very happy indeed
I shall leave this world with a smile
It was then I had the strength to watch back to my house of horrors
calling for a ride with my bleeding feet a miss
I stand here again
waiting for my next bliss of happiness or sadness
as I welcome this death of mine with a smile and positive vibe
D4rkFir3L0v3 Community Member 
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