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Argh! There are some things that I really want to talk about but if I do here's what happens:

1. Terra gets bored
2. Emily feels like I'm trying to upstage her with things less interesting than what she's got going on
3. Lindsey talks about Jake
4. Du tells me to shut up and/or is talking to Ben on the phone
5. Mom says it's time for bed.

People wonder why I repeat things so much? It's because the stupid people who are asking that stupid question DON'T REACT. And by "people" I really mean "people", not just one person. So who, may I ask, can I talk to? Du has Ben, Pat has Megan, Lindsey had Jake, Terra doesn't care, Emily has what's-his-face. Mom and Du tell me to shut up because I am only a freshman, but is my age really a factor in how lousy I feel? I mean, Du says she felt lousy freshman year, so I can too, right? AND GUESS WHAT ELSE??? IF I HADN'T BEEN KICKED OUT OF HONORS ALGEBRA I WOULD HAVE BEEN ABLE TO GO TO THE JAPANESE DRUMMING PERFORMANCE!!!! Don't ask how or what that has to do with anything. That's just the way my mind works. But still, I mean really, I am seriously (only not) going to do something drastic one of these days. How much can a girl take?? School's a mess, I don't have a life AT ALL, and no one CARES about the life I do have because THEY'RE too obsessed with their own life THAT THEY ACTUALLY HAVE! I wish I could just leave sometimes. I don't know where to or anything, just leave. Or go to a psychiatrist so they'll HAVE to listen to me complain. It's their JOB. And hte people who actually DO listen I feel bad complaing to, because they're guys and really don't care but are sweet so they pretend they do! I am so frustrated with life!!!! And we're not doing BESM because Pat is busy, probably with Megan, so that will probably be no fun. And I don't fit in anywhere. I don't fit in anywhere at school. Terra is hanging out with the stupid stupid freaking Ocean Bowl people, and Lindsey has her guys, and Emily has her group of random people, and I don't fit in with the high mowing people either because I don't go there and they're Du's friends anyway and I have to go to bed now!!!!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! I am going to cry.