Nothing can be simple huh? Everything just has to be hard. Trial and error, it always works! For some reason I have a hard time believing that. Maybe I have no right asking for things to be simpler. I haven't had enough "Rough times" yet. When is giving up okay? I've always wondered that. You give up and then your a loser. You say you're done and now you're a brainiac. You give your opinion, suddenly your a smartass. Nothing ever works. You can't ask "What do you want me to do?!" 'Cause then they tell you, and it's not what you wanted to hear. I'm tired of where I live. Tired of the morons that I see everyday at the Hell-hole I go to. And tired of people trying to shape me into what they want to see. Everyone here is blind to reality. You tell a kids parents that their child is crack head and they say, "No. Suzy would never do that!!" But it's so obvious. To those that don't want to know the truth, it's carefully hidden. To those that look for what's obviously there, you see it easily. stare
Do I seem mental to you? Is it because I'm using words like "obvious" and "moron?" No...it couldn't be...those aren't big words. Or at least they shouldn't be. Since when did the words "idiotic" and "controversy" become big words? It's not like they're hard to say for the average 8th grader. Not that I'm saying everyone has the same brain capacity, because that's obviously not true. I say mental and suddenly I'm a nerd. I tell someone I spend my spare time writing, or drawing, or possibly reading. Now I'm a geek. I say I like to run, now I should try out for basketball, and football, and baseball, and gymnastics. I say I don't smoke and it's surprising? I don't know what it feels like to get high. Now I'm a loser. stare
Could it be possible that maybe society has shaped people this way? Now you have to be a stick with your ribs poking out to be considered sexy. And suddenly it's cute to be a hoe? You wear a skirt that you found in the baby section of Sears and a face towel for a shirt, NOW YOUR HOT!!!! rolleyes Forgive me if I don't agree with the new laws of fashion, but I don't feel like wearing my bra and a dish rag to school. I can't be smart without being a nerd, I can't say something without being considered a freak. If I wear all black I'm a goth, if I say someone iritates me I'm judging them. Maybe if someone would just open their eyes and shut they're mouths they'll understand. Then they can be like "OH I get it now!! You just don't have fun being a complete and total mental case by wasting away your life on drugs sex and alcohol. You're not a geek...you're just smart!!!!!!" People don't want to understand, so they ignore the truth. They want you the way they want you. Not the way you are...that's not acceptable. You have to be like them.
My thoughts disturb some people. But that's only because they don't understand what I'm talking about. The only person that understands me is my best friend. And you know what...I'm happy that's the way it is. I couldn't trust anyone else with my mind... ninja
Mizuyu Kanazaki Community Member 
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