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My life, is a rollercoaster, up and down up and down over and over again. i was tired of it... meaningless piece of s**t i was... the kid with the ******** up eye, the new kid at the school, the nerd, the retard, the everything. my life never had a real meaning, nothing more than actually breathing, i was at the brink of destruction, giving up everything: morals, friends, family... i was on the pathway of the drug use... FORGETING EVERYTHING I LEARNED ABOUT WHAT WAS GOOD AND WHAT WAS BAD AND JUST JOINING IN THAT STUPID ******** UP WAY TO LIVE.
I was crushed, my dad didnt trust me anymore, and deception is the only thing he felt of me, started to get tested and all my family found out and looked at me like if i was a drug dealer. befor i went into all that crap, i met a good friend, she was one of the friends i left for that stupid life, and one magical day... she found me on msn and right in that day, the sunshine reached my skin and eyes once again... me and her talked all the time and one day... she said the most shocking at amazing phrase i could ever hear: i love you
That was the day i was rescued...
Baby, omg my sweet little baby, what can i say about you... dearly love of my life you are the reason why i even get up from bed everyday... you encourage me to live my life with a goal, that i will finally be able to be with you, and that is my only major goal in my life, my whole life.
My baby, i dont know what to say really, i like your body, i like your face, your hair, your voice, your smile, your eyes, even your cries are like church bells to my ears... for you baby, i would cross the world, for you baby, i would chop jr off (given certain circumstances) for you baby, i would remain virgin for several years, just waiting for you.
ever since you said you loved me, so many things happened between us, arguments, secrets, lies... but HEY, good thing happened too.... you said you loved me, you said you wanted me, we talked for such long time every day on the phone, just missing each other.
please my baby, dont ever leave me... i know i am not perfect and sometime i will get you really mad but i please ask you to think that i will never be perfect, i cant be the best man ever, but i sure can do my best to be a good man...
baby baby, touching you scares me... i feel like im gonna make you feel like a sex toy again and that you are going to decided to leave me forever... it just scares me so much im afraid of doing anything like that to you... oh my god, your damn warm body feels so good on my hands, i wish i had you every day so i could havethe blessing of having you next to me right there, just looking at your beautiful face one more time makes more than 3 days...
baby baby, my dear baby... you for some reason are the only one that wont give up on me even though my eyes are completely screwed up... and you dont give up on me which makes me think god, i must be a good person if she doesnt wanna be mean enough to just dump me like any other girl would always have done that.
baby, im anxious about the day that we share our bodies with each other, that tday i will become a ream man, having my girl, my only girl with me for a whole night... BABY, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, THANKS FOR BEING YOU, I WOULD BE IN SOME CRAPPY a** PLACE RIGH NOW IF IT WASNT FOR ALL THE LOVE YOU HAVE GIVEN TO ME, I LOVE YOU LOVE YOU MY ALL TIME BABY.... BABY.... thanks for being you... thanks :'(
 havaloko · Sat May 08, 2010 @ 03:40am · 0 Comments |
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