Okay. I'm confused. And angry. And depressed/sad. Why?? I HAVE NO ******** IDEA WHO I REALLY AM. Yay me. stare And there's more. But I'd rather not put that up here. Okay, here's the main thingy of why. I was sitting in gym class (I didn't do anything, I was 'subbing' in during basketball whee ) and I was thinking about lots of stuffs. And then my mind wandered to personalities. And then I got to thinking about how my personality varies a lot. And then I was thinking about how I can act so differently depending on my situation. I mean, sersiously. If I'm with people I'm normally hyper/crazy around, I'll be like that even if I just want to crawl under a rock and cry. And, if I'm quiet around certian people, I'll be quiet around them. Even if I just want to jump around and be crazy. I guess you get the idea. And, then there are those people who know who they are and all that s**t. And I hate them for that. But I'm also really jealous. confused And then there's also other issues I'm not going to talk about for now. Not until I get how I feel worked out. But... I really want to talk about it. I just don't know how. And I don't know who to trust about this. I mean, it should be really obvious, right?? But it's not. And I have no idea what I should do. And then there's this whole issue I have with myself. I don't know how to explain this, though. It's just so damn confusing. Yaagh. I just want to talk sleep. In sleep I don't feel anything. Unless I dream, but I rarely remember my dreams.
ButterflyXWings · Sun Jan 22, 2006 @ 03:15am · 0 Comments |