I shouldn't be shocked that the fact that I live here has made it so I've been, for lack of better term, left behind.
Which doesn't surprise me. In the end, it really doesn't.
Because I guess I expected it would happen. I knew that I was going to pay a price for leaving--people were going to gradually stop talking to me because its simply too much work to keep up with me, and I'm not so blameless either. With 50 things going on, phone calls are hard to make.
Everyone back home is moving on, seeing each other, and life is going by for them.
I'm praying that happens to me, soon. I got so so sick of being lonely and angry and jealous and sad. I want to have a means to move on too.
But I'm over it.
It's alright now.
I'm alright now.
Rehearsal for 6:30, yay! And yay Andrew and I for making a year today. ♥
Which doesn't surprise me. In the end, it really doesn't.
Because I guess I expected it would happen. I knew that I was going to pay a price for leaving--people were going to gradually stop talking to me because its simply too much work to keep up with me, and I'm not so blameless either. With 50 things going on, phone calls are hard to make.
Everyone back home is moving on, seeing each other, and life is going by for them.
I'm praying that happens to me, soon. I got so so sick of being lonely and angry and jealous and sad. I want to have a means to move on too.
But I'm over it.
It's alright now.
I'm alright now.
Rehearsal for 6:30, yay! And yay Andrew and I for making a year today. ♥
