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I've bolded the lyrics that really speak to me because of the mood I'm in.

Sometimes I get so weird
I even freak myself out
I laugh myself to sleep,it's my
lullaby
Sometimes I drive so fast
Just to feel danger
I wanna scream it makes me feel alive

Is it enough to love?
Is it enough to breathe?
Somebody rip my heart out
And leave me here to bleed
Is it enough to die?
Somebody save my life
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please

To walk within the lines
Would make my life so boring
I want to know that I have been
To the extreme (knock me)
So knock me off my feet (my feet)
Come on now give it to me
Anything to make me feel alive

Is it enough to love?
Is it enough to breathe?
Somebody rip my heart out
And leave me here to bleed
Is it enough to die?
Somebody save my life
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please

Let down your defenses
Use no common sense
If you look you will see
That this world is a beautiful, accident,
turbulent, succulent, opulent,
permanent, no way
I wanna taste it
Don't wanna waste it away

Sometimes I get so weird
I even freak my self out
I laugh myself to sleep,it's my
lullaby

Is it enough, (is it enough?)
Is it enough to breathe?
Somebody rip my heart out
And leave me here to bleed
Is it enough to die?
Somebody save my life
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please

(Is it enough?)Is it enough to die?
somebody save my life
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please (ooh ooohhh)
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please

God, this isn't really how I feel. Except for the rip my heart out line. I love that one. But really, I don't WANT to be a rebel. I just don't want to feel like a falure. I just can't believe. I am being kicked out of math class. I am going to a lower level. Algebra I. Not honors any more. Now I'm just ordinary Amy. Why do I have to deal with this humiliation?? Why are they doing this to me???? I hate this place. We have 5 freaking weeks left in the semester and now NOW they're switching me. Everyone in my new and old math class will know that I didn't maintain a B average and now because of a freaking C+ I am forced to repeat everything I've learned in 6th grade. Dad's going to talk to my gudence counselor on Monday. Maybe I can stay in once that stupid school hears all of my points. I hate it all. God I'm crying again now. I thought I'd stopped. I just can't believe it. This weekend was supposed to be so much fun. I hope I cheer up again by tomorrow. And Terra's going to be all........superior. I DON'T WANT TO GO TO A LOWER MATH CLASS!!! I HATE IT ALL! AND I CAN'T SEE THE COMPUTER SCREEN! I have to stop crying. Everythings going wrong. No guys at my school like me. My classes are way to long. I hate it all. OK, I'll stop now before I freak anyone out too much. But I really just can't believe it. Typing this is just making me cry harder so I should stop.
Bye