I hate who I am.
I hate how I act.
I hate the way a portray myself.
I hate how I can open my heart up to people I barely know, yet I can't get myself to say things to the ones I love.
I hate how everything I do ends up working out for the worst.
I hate how so many of my "friends" only put up with me just because no one else will.
I hate how I overthink situations.
I hate people telling me my faults and how I have to stop caring so much.
I hate people overcrowding me.
I hate me contradicting my last sentence and saying how I wish I had one good friend to talk to that would just listen and let me cry.
I hate the way I look.
I hate how I'm bitchy.
I hate not being content with myself.
I hate how so many of "friends" are so fake.
I hate how they talk about it and expect me not to know.
I hate having to live up to others expectations.
I hate having teachers that hate me and b***h at me for certain things and then when others do it, it's funny and amusing.
I hate how DeFries hates me but won't say it to my face.
I hate being me.
I hate my entire personality and state of being.
The comments about the friends was not directed towards all.
Tips for my friends for tomorrow:
Do not wait for me anywhere. Do not walk with me anywhere. Do not anticipate my arrival anywhere.
Let me be.
Do not talk to me unless you are acknowledged by me first.
I need alone time. And I mean ALONE. This goes out to everyone. No exceptions.
I know I'm being a b***h and just plain stupid. But if you don't want me to tell you ******** off, abide by my rules. Please just let have some time... I'm just feeling all emo.
TheTimeHasCome · Thu Nov 17, 2005 @ 01:14am · 1 Comments |