.. to lose something is horrible.. of course you never realize how important it is to you until you've lost it whether it be a pair of jeans.. a necklace.. a cd or a best friend..
i don't want your pitty i don't nessicarilly want your opinion i just need to write this out cause it hurts to think about it all the time and not be able to let people know how it feel sad sweatdrop if you think i'm just being dramatic then stop reading now and go back to having a life ...
.. Grade 9, wow what a year.. new school, had to leave all my friends leave my house leave all the great memories.. one thing I wasn't expecting was to lose my best friend. It was March 2001 and my sisters friend Danielle was having a b-day party, it was a surprise for her, I was invited because Danielle is my best friends sister. So we go and we had a great weekend watching movies and playing on the trampolene.
I had to leave for Quebec the next day for a school trip which was cool and everything. I went to Quebec and was having a great time even though my french is horrible beyond repair. My mom phoned me the second night into my trip and I new something was up but I didn't ask questions I just pretended like I hadn't noticed, we said our good nights and I went to bed. The trip went on for a nother 2 days and then we drove the long 8 hours back to town. When I get home I unpacked everything and came down stairs, my mom said I should sit down. So I sat down and thats when I felt like puke.. The nest words that came out of her mouth were.. Lisa's dead....
All I did was cry and say no... I just kept repeating no ..no no ...NO!! ... I was soo mad ... I'm still mad, her death has changed me forever.. and wow .. what a thing to lose your best friend to suicide at 14 ....
things since then have been kinda weird.. I feel like I can't really make true friends .. its hard to explain.. but I feel so lost in the social world of things ...
its like people just don't understand .. and mind them, how could they..
its not like they had they're best friend taken away from them... not like they didn't get to say goodbye ...
Tick_Tick · Tue Oct 11, 2005 @ 10:27pm · 1 Comments |