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Okay, I came back from Denver on Sunday and things seemed good between me and James. I hung out with Himon, James and Reydel until Mary Bolf came over (all these people are on "my space" wink , then we all hung out. Anyway, we're watching movies, and later that night Madison calls, saying she's bored, and James says she could come over! stressed Well, Mary Bolf and I were not about to allow Madison to go near James, so we were laying on both sides of him...sort of on him blaugh . Anyway, throughout some of the movie Madison left, then later James left saying he was going to go talk to his friend Richie...well he was taking a while, Himon was saying James went to Madison, plus it was hot, so we decided to go outside. Well, guess who comes up...Richie. So Mary Bolf calls up James and he is with Madison! However, he told Mary on the phone that he was talking to Richie, but Madison wanted to talk to him, plus he wanted to talk to Madison for Richie because Richie likes Madison. However, Mary only told me the bad stuff, the part where James was yelling back at her, "WELL SHE KISSED ANOTHER GUY, SHE KISSED ANOTHER GUY!!! (talking about when Victor kissed me...)" So I was hurt, thinking James was purpously trying to hurt me. Then Richie didn't help saying, "James didn't do anything wrong, you did. James don't trust you anymore because you went back on your word." I was so hurt, and I felt like a whore. No one's perfect! I'm an honest person, but I'm also impulsive. I can say one thing and completely mean it, but when I'm in the moment, and one thing happens after another, and forces push me...then I act on it. People are telling me, James doesn't deserve you, you need to get over him, he's an a-hole, he doesn't treat women right. I'm crying. We're waiting for James to hurry up and finish with Madison so I can go home (he was at the girls dorm with Madison, we were at the boys dorm...looking over at the girls waiting for him to come back). Anyway, we decide just to go over there, and see that James and Madison were actually outside...by the bushes. We go and hang out on the porch of O'Connor, and guess who pulls up! Victor! Him and some cronies walk by (I know James seen him) and Victor's ex (I think he was with her when he kissed me, of coarse I didn't now about this till later). Well, Victor's ex's friend Paris was pissed, she was going to ******** Victor up for playing Lanee (Victor's ex) and being a slut. Lanee was supposed to tell Victor that she didn't want to mess with him no more (I guess she did). Plus Victor, his friends and this girl, Judy went back to the other boys dorms (which is right next to the girls dorm). Anyway when Madison and James were done talking Madison went right into the dorms, and James came over to us where we gave him the silent treatment. So he then walks away saying, "No one wants to talk to me, fine I'll leave. At least I'm not the one going around kissing people." I think that's what he said when he was a ways away. So I got up pissed and said, "What b***h!" He then started to come back and I started to go down there (and out of no where people were coming out of O'Connor...the girls dorm) so we went a bit aways then started to yell at each other. I eventually find out that he didn't do anything wrong (yet again), and that it was just a misunderstanding. I told James I was sorry, he forgave me, and invited me back to his dorm so we could talk more. Mary, Himon, and Reydel came by then too, and were heading back to Huggins (the boys dorm where James stays...the other dorm's called Romero, where the slut Victor stays). Himon was a bit mad that I was going with James (Himon and James are pissed at each other...and I need to try and fix that). I said my goodbyes to them and went to James room where we talked until I fell asleep. Things are pretty good between James and I, but he said he just needs to get over the Victor and I thing. That hurt us sooo much. James doesn't fully trust me anymore, and that kills me. cry
yelling...
gradually understanding...
forgiveness...
 dessertofdeath · Mon Sep 26, 2005 @ 09:22pm · 0 Comments |
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