..... this entry is just basically to relieve some (if not all) of my fears about ... the next day. Tomorrow. AKA first day of school in a completely different school, first day of school in an actual HIGH school. (I spent my freshman year in my same middle school). I am now a sophamore. and somehow the concept of going to this high school (cb west) completely scares me.... Mebbe it's just me. It won't be everyone I know. in fact, less than a quarter would be people I know. the rest would be strangers whom I have never met before. I think it's just fear of rejection. not knowing anyone, and no one there to talk to you. I'm a very very VERY self concious person. The nerd part of me is partly why. >.< and the other fact is that I personally don't think I'm the most attractive person in the world. The outer me appears to be calm, unnerved, steady. the inside.... well, it's a total wreck. I'm the opposite of calm, as nervous as one can get, and.... quivering. I'm a real coward on the inside, so I put on a strong face to try and hide it. But, putting it straight, I am so so so so, very very very VERY frightened about tomorrow. I am utterly terrified...... I will probably, most likely feel so small.......
THERE. done rambling. xD had to let that out.... thanks for listening =)
 Lady Meiku Noire · Mon Sep 01, 2008 @ 11:29pm · 1 Comments |
