As promised, here's the pure b***h column. Had to sit in a line for 2 ******** HOURS today for a 2 minute schedule change. Blah blah blah new building sucks. I'd rather that didn't happen, but in the long run I don't care. Got home today only to be bitched at for being alive again. I know you never wanted me, as you've told me so many times before. How your lives would have been so much better if I was never born. How I wasn't what you expected; what you wanted. I was supposed to be the happy, outgoing little child who always did what you said and would always act completely normal and polite and never let anyone know that at home you screamed at her, hit her, called her things that no toddler should have to hear, locked her in her room just because you "felt like it". You'll scream when I speak, you'll scream when I don't. I don't have a voice, I don't have a will, I don't have a soul. And then you do the most disgusting thing of all. You lie about it. Sure, when others are watching you'll tell them about how you're so proud of your little mistake and how she's so smart and plays the flute so nicely. When they aren't watching, I'm just the no good lazy ******** jackass that you should have given up for adoption years ago. YOU TWO ARE ******** LIARS!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU TWO FACED PIECES OF s**t!!!!!!!! No matter how much you try to fake otherwise, you will always be the pathetic excuses for human beings that screamed at and slapped your five year old daughter while she lay on the floor, curled up in a puddle of her own tears and regurgitated blood and mucus, begging for mercy. "Please stop it. I didn't do anything to you. Whatever it is I'm sorry and I won't do it again. Just please stop it. It hurts so much. Why don't you love me?" That's the reason I'm most jealous of all my friends from school. Sure, they'll gripe about living la vida Ramen, but they all have families that love them and would never do any of that to them. I don't give a s**t if you guys make more money than them. Look at what assholes you've become. Not like I use half the s**t you get anyway. Not like I'd want to unless it was necessary. It's just blood money anyway. Blood from the knife that was too dull to end what should never have been started. At any point in my life I would have given anything to have a family. I still would. But there never was any hope for that.
IcyNirvana7 · Tue Sep 13, 2005 @ 02:59am · 0 Comments |