Well looking at how long it's been since I've posted in my Gaian Journal I can safely say that many things have changed since my last post.
I've stopped caring about whether Emily accepts the fact that I'm alive in this world or not.
I did get a decent score on the SAT, I only applied to two colleges and I got into both of them. I chose the cheaper one that was the farthest away from home but it's still in the state so it's not horrendously horrible.
I ended up changing my major from Art to Writing. Not that it would make more of a difference really, I mean I will still always to art, I just won't pay for the classes to learn more techniques or whatever. But I want to get better at writing.
In my first semester of College I got grammer beaten in to me by a Grammer Nazi. I seriously thought I was going to fail that class, thank goodness I didn't. My writing style has improved tremendously so I'm glad about that.
Eddie and I are still attached, looks like it was worth it after all.
Haven't been going to church for quite some time.
I finally figured out the problem.
I'm tired of feeling alone
and no one understanding how alone I feel there.
I'm the only of my family who's there, no one else
everyone is with their families but it's just me
The pastor's don't call out my birthday or any of my achievements like everyone else, parents' always fuss about that stuff and for everyone to know it but I just don't have that.
It's funny I am in the house where I'm suppose to feel whole and loved
and I couldn't feel anything more than the opposite of it
I guess it sounds stupid to say but there's no other way to explain it.
oh well that's life,
later days
 Sereneblaze · Sat Jul 12, 2008 @ 08:25am · 0 Comments |
